I will fear no more

Hello, World!

For those who don't know, yet, I am contemplating putting all I own into a storage unit, getting a mailbox at one of those mom and pop mailbox places so I can have a permanent address, sending my dogs off to be cared for by good people for the remainder of their lives, and travelling the USA in my car, doing Door Dash, Grub Hub, Waitr, Spark and Ubereats everywhere I go for a living, while ministering to the homeless and telling my story in shelters and churches and places I have never been to people who have never heard it, spreading the good news about Jesus as I go!

Believe it or not, there are people in our OWN country who have not heard the good news. Many have heard of Jesus, but not about what He can do, what He did or WHY. I know this because I have run into some. And, it is sad when you run into a 19 year old kid that, when you say something about Noah from the Bible, he says, "Isn't that the guy that swam across the salt sea to save the jews?"

???

In our OWN COUNTRY!

When Jesus started His ministry, even his disciples didn't understand what He was doing or why. Matthew 13:54-58, Jesus said, "A prophet is not without honour, save in his own country, and in his own house," when people who had known him all His life were not agreeable to what He was doing. So, it honors me to be in His good company.

Yes, anything could happen while I'm out there, and I wouldn't be here near family...but let's be realistic: What is my family going to do with me if I get put into the hospital while I am here? I went through that with my gall bladder, remember? I was there alone most of the time. I went home and recovered alone. It's why Gary and Fred moved in with me. AND THEY ARE NOT MY FAMILY! And none of my friends showed up when I was there either. So seriously, what can family do for me HERE that they can't do for me when I am THERE? Read Matthew 12:47-50.

I am not claiming to be a prophet. I am merely a disciple. And, I am taking the great commission seriously. I have done what I can where I am, now it is time for me to move on to some place new.

If I were going to Africa to minister there, would it be met with as much friction?

This is not something that I have not thought about for several years. I've even mentioned it. But, now that I am seriously contemplating it all, and the time is growing shorter for me to jump in and get my feet wet, suddenly everyone is giving me doom about it.

I will not be afraid, for God is with me.

I will not fail to have faith enough to fight even the biggest problems that will occur, like David with Goliath, when everyone told him he was crazy, too.

I will keep my eye on the prize, and I will live abundantly.

No one is going to talk me OUT of doing what I feel God is trying to talk me INTO.

YOLO

Have a blessed night!

Yes I will

Good morning, World!

God spoke to me in my dreams last night. I know this, because I actually had dreams. I haven't dreamed often lately, and usually, when I have a dream I remember, it is prophetic.

The gist of what I am getting of the message that God gave me was that there was going to be a drastic, overwhelming, very emotional change in my life soon, and that there was purpose in what was about to happen that would lead to me finding and establishing new relationships in my life.

I am not sure how to take that...except that it is a little bit in line with the plans for the future that I have been contemplating.

God tends to speak to me in a myriad of ways, and usually not all of them at the same time...but I feel there is a sense of urgency because this time He has used more than one way to tell me what He is planning for my life.

I am SO not ready for this!

I got an email today from a line of income I applied for 2 years ago that said I had been blocked because of conduct issues on deliveries I had made with them, but I have never done a delivery through them, so that is impossible. I contacted them to appeal and told them so. LOL

Today I start working to try to make $419 before the 20th of this month to pay my bills for the next week, from the 20th-27th. I already have most of that in my E-trade account ($372) so I think I will have that covered today, with all the rest going into my E-trade account for the first of the month bills.

I'm going to work real hard to have the money I need before the 27th. I have to come up with $1600 by then. I don't see that happening in one week's time, so I have to work hard this week, even though my bills will be covered for next week.

This also means I may have to work on the Sabbath, again.

Have a blessed day!

I Choose Jesus

Hello, World!

I am home. I hit goal, so I didn't stay out.

This week, I have to make $419 to pay all the bills from this coming Tuesday until the next Tuesday (The 27th). I think I have that covered.

With all of my apps, I made a little over $600 this week, and my bills were only $390, so my E-trade investments are growing. At least until the 1st of the month.

I didn't go shopping tonight. I didn't eat out either. I came home and fixed a couple of hamburger patties. Call it the "Atkins" diet. I'm still not losing weight.

And, I'm tired of trying.

I'm still reflecting and thinking about my future. I have some big decisions to make ahead of me...but it is going to be quite a while down the road before I make them definitively.

Regardless of what I do, I have one choice already made that is as definitive as it will ever get: I choose Jesus!

Have a blessed night!

Rest For Your Soul

Happy Midnight, World.

I just finished watching "Legacy Peak" and "A Christmas...Present" on Pure Flix.

I figure it is time for some Christmas movies.

I made $100 today. It feels good to know that I don't have to stress over paying my bills next week, and now I can start working on the next week's bills. I have to make $418 to cover the rest of the month. It is only the tenth. I think I have that covered.

And, it feels even better knowing I should have my Uber and Lyft accounts back online by the first of next year.

I asked for a good start for the New Year. God did not fail me. Praise be to Him who answers prayer!

Tomorrow, I plan to stay home and clean house and wash clothes. I plan to relax and not drive. I plan to take a day off that I haven't been able to take off since Thanksgiving. I owe it to God, and myself.

Have a blessed night!

Rain

Good Thursday evening, World.

Yes, I'm home early.

I made about $60. Minimum wage.

It was raining. I didn't do any Sparking.

I finally just hung it up.

I am now watching "90 Minutes in Heaven" on Pure Flix. About a guy who is killed in a car accident and comes back.

I made the money I need.

Have a blessed night!

The Table

Good Wednesday Evening, World!

I had a great day today. I made over $130. Not all of it was on the Spark app, though. I used what was on Grub Hub to pay for gas and groceries.

I bought a sleeve of Great Value Hamburger patties and a box of sausage patties, and some more tomatoes and some deodorant that I needed. I was running out at home.

I'm fixing some Sausage, Tomato and Cheese sandwiches on wheat bread with Mayonnaise. YUM.

I can't go shopping for food again until Saturday, though. I spent $30. I shouldn't need to, though.

Well, time to pay some more bills before I go to bed, and check my E-trade account.

Thank You, Jesus, for nourishing me in all Your ways!

Have a blessed night!

Breathe

Good Tuesday Evening, World.

I've had a good day.

I went to the Dealership and they cut me a check for the car payment. They told me that they expected to have my tags within two more weeks. I told them I would be so happy. It would be a weight off my shoulders.

Then I went to the bank to deposit my checks.

I've paid my bills for the week ahead. And, I made about $100 today.

I can't wait to be able to travel again. Having all my apps back in order will be like being able to breathe again.

Well, have a blessed night!

Hard Day

Good Monday Evening, World!

I ran today! I ran hard! I should have made more, but beggers can't be choosers and I took the offers that were available, the highest paying I could find.

I also went by the dealership and was assured they were going to help me. I have to go back tomorrow to pick up the check.

The last run was a 12-drop delivery. On my first drop, the lady left a message on the app, "Please come to the back of the house. My mother doesn't want anyone to drive back there, so you will have to walk and if you have a lot of groceries, you may want one of those wagons.."

I had delivered to her before, so I knew where she was. And, it was only one package...

HOWEVER, it was foggy tonight. I had to drive slow to get there. When I got there, I had to use my phone's light to see, it was REAL dark. And muddy from the recent rain. And, I had to walk up a wheelchair ramp when I finally made it around to her house. It was slippery, but there were mats on it. I stepped as carefully as I could on the mats.

I put the item in front of the door, took a picture, then knocked on the door. I could hear the lady inside.

I started down the wheelchair ramp. The mat slipped under me and down I went; FLAT on my back.

I cussed.

Yes, I lost my Christianity for a moment. LOL

The lady opened the door just in time to hear me say, "There better not be anything broken!" LOL

She said, "We put mats down there.."

I said, "OBVIOUSLY it isn't good enough. If I'd ended up in the hospital, you would have had to pay for it, NOT Walmart, so I SUGGEST you do something about that. At any rate, I personally will NOT be delivering anything else to THIS address."

I left, walking away with a muddy shirt sticking to my back, and a wet butt.

I still had 10 more deliveries to make.

One of them took me to a house that broken wooden steps and a whole in the porch. I won't be delivering there again, either.

Ya'll, this is my SAFETY the customers are messing with. This is my HEALTH and WELL-BEING. I don't get paid enough from no-tipping customers to deal with that. I did 12 deliveries for just $34. Not worth THAT. So yes, I will gripe when it happens OUT LOUD.

I went to Walmart and bought some power bites and wieners and brownie mix with the $11 in cash tips I had saved up. Then, I came home and took the dogs out and ate and enjoyed the brownie mix like pudding. Some of it. I'll save the rest for other nights I need some chocolate to soothe my nerves.

Have a blessed night!

Minimum Money Day.

Hello, World.

I woke up late this morning, and then I went to work.

My first run was Walmart. I wanted to test the waters, so to speak. It was a delivery that was going to pay me $14. I waited over an hour and a half, and I couldn't cancel, because it was 2 deliveries, and one was brought to my car so I HAD to wait for the second one before I could leave.

By the time it was delivered, over 2 hours had passed. I made less than minimum wage for those 2 hours. So, I turned the Spark app off.

They are not going to treat me like that and expect me to drive.

I turned on the Door Dash app, which was offering drive time up til 2:30 AM. That isn't normal. So, I took as much of it as I knew I would be able to drive.

I only made another $75. It was better than nothing.

I am home now.

Have a blessed night.

Goal is made

Good Sabbath Evening, World!

I tried to do some Spark today, but the first time they made me wait an hour I turned it off. I did a lot of ASAP and Grub Hub and a couple of Door Dash. I made about $100 and came home.

I have enough to pay my bills for next week now. Payday is Tuesday, so I will be good until next payday after that. Whatever I make from here on out goes toward gas money and E-trade investments.

I'll end up using my E-trade around the first of next month.

I'm home now. I'll probably watch what is left of the last season of "Lost" and then go to bed.

Have a blessed night!

Oh My Soul

Good Friday Evening, World.

I woke up 2 hours later than I did on Thursday, and I still didn't want to get out of bed.

When I finally got out of the house, I did a couple of runs then went to The One Buffet to eat. I guess I was trying to make myself feel better.

It didn't work.

When I got back into my car, I drank two bottles of water within 30 minutes, and a glass of tea. Include with that the two glasses of tea I drank while I was eating, and that is a lot of fluid intake for an hour of time.

Then I had to go to the bathroom. Several times. Not to pee, though.

I was feeling even more "blah".

I did a couple of Spark runs, and was on one more high paying one, but I just cancelled it and came home.

I tried to lay down, but I'm not sleepy...I just don't feel good. And, I am thirsty. A lot.

Maybe I will feel better in the morning.

I did make $45 today...and I only need $65 more to make bill money for next week. So, I guess I can afford to take a break.

Have a blessed night.

Coat and Treats

Hello, World!

I did good today, no thanks to Spark. I made about as much on ASAP deliveries as I did on Spark...but I still had a good day. I didn't come close to making my goal if I have a car payment to make, though. If I don't have to make my car payment, I only have to make about $108 more for the week on the Spark App. Everything I am making on the other apps is going into E-trade. I got it covered, though. WooHOO!

Jesus gave me a new coat today.

Okay, it was a Facebook Friend who sent it to me, but I don't think she would mind Jesus getting the credit, since she was acting as His hands and feet.

At any rate, it is another thing to mark off my "Things I'm asking God for" list.

I made $138 today. Not bad at all.

Milo and Otis got bacon beggin' strip treats from my friend, too.

They say, "Woof Woof".

Have a blessed night!