Tuesday, February 20, 2024

Following His Lead.

Good morning, World!

This morning, I will be working inside my room, buying and selling stocks until around 3 PM, then I will venture out to do some Uber and Lyft, and get something to eat.

I didn't make as much this week as I did last week, but at least my bills are covered for now.

I have been praying, and I think that it is now time that I start visiting different churches in the area throughout the week.

God has given me the talent of sharing information, and sometimes information is how we help others. It is time I start gathering information, in order to share and encourage others into the involvement in the community around us.

With my health the way it is right now, I think God has finished with my traveling for a little while. Maybe I'll get back on that horse later. For now, as disappointed as I am that I can't continue, God is not finished with me yet. And, I will continue to follow His lead.

Ya'll have a blessed day!

Monday, February 19, 2024

Genesis 1:6-8

Genesis 1:6-8

6And God said, Let there be a firmament in the midst of the waters, and let it divide the waters from the waters.
7And God made the firmament, and divided the waters which were under the firmament from the waters which were above the firmament: and it was so.
8And God called the firmament Heaven. And the evening and the morning were the second day.

God created every part of me. And, I am a part of the body of Christ. Each part in the body has a purpose.

If I choose not to do God's will, then I am but a dead limb on the tree that get pruned and cast aside.

John 15:1-2

1 I am the true vine, and my Father is the husbandman. 2 Every branch in me that beareth not fruit he taketh away: and every branch that beareth fruit, he purgeth it, that it may bring forth more fruit.

According to the Oxford Languages Dictionary, the word "purge" means

"rid (someone or something) of an unwanted quality, condition, or feeling"

So, all the parts of me that are not useful for God's purposes are slowly being torn away...

And, no one said it would be painless.

God divides the good from the bad.

Sunday, February 18, 2024

Genesis Chapter 1:4-5

Genesis Chapter 1:4-5

4 And God saw the light, that it was good: and God divided the light from the darkness.
5 And God called the light Day, and the darkness he called Night. And the evening and the morning were the first day.

God divided me from those who chose not to be called His. He set me aside. He sanctified me.

This means, I am special. I am somebody. I am worth it, in His eyes.

Saturday, February 17, 2024

Genesis 1:1-3

Genesis chapter 1

In the beginning God created the heaven and the Earth.

A new beginning deserves a new beginning.

Today is the first day of the rest of my life. Today is the day that the Lord has made and I will rejoice and be glad in it.

In the beginning, God created me.

It was a different beginning than the one in the Bible, but it was a beginning, nonetheless.

I've started over so many times in my life. The one thing that all those things have in common is that I carried parts of my old self into them. I am sure that this time will not be any different; but, I'm going to try.

I start with nothing. Everything I have is a gift from God.

My health has taken a turn for the worst, and right now I am praying for healing that only He can provide, in a myriad of ways.

God gave me a story to tell. I want to tell that story.

Genesis chapter 1 verse 2

The Earth was without form, and void; and darkness was on the face of the deep. And the spirit of God was hovering over the face of the waters.

The darkness tried to overtake me. It surrounded me on all sides. I felt as if I was going through a dark tunnel, grasping for anything I could hold on to to help pull me through.

I could see the light at the end of the tunnel. I knew it was there. But this long dark tunnel was so lonely and desolate.

By the time I got to the end of the tunnel, I had been beaten and battered in my heart. My health had taken a downturn and I had no way of knowing if I would ever get better.

Congestive heart failure is not curable. It is only manageable. 

Genesis chapter 1 verse 3

Then God said, “Let there be light”; and there was light.

Sometimes the struggles we have in life scar us. I had spent the last 2 years begging for help from people who were supposed to be the face of Jesus.

Aside from a few people who said they would pray for me, help was very hard to get.

It made the face of Jesus look useless.

If I had not been as strongly grounded in my faith, if I hadn't known the power of my God and understood that ultimately His plan would prevail, I probably would have thrown Christianity away.

I can understand the anger some people feel towards Him and what He stands for. It doesn't make that anger justified - only understood.

Thursday, January 11, 2024

Avocados, Tires, Cigarettes, and Back Seat Drivers

Good evening, World!

I got this rental car so that I wouldn't be as stressed as I have been over working.

However, today was probably the most stressful day I've had in a while!

I woke up at 4:00 a.m. this morning, and the gauge was reading that I needed a tire rotation. I thought to myself, that can't be right because I just got the vehicle! And I don't even have a voucher yet.

I reset the gauge so that it reads that a tire rotation isn't due for another 5,000 MI.

Then the little exclamation light came on and said that my tires were low on pressure.


I found the nearest discount Tire and went to go get my tires aired up and had them check the tires while they were at it. They informed me that I needed two new tires on the front. The reading for the tires was in the red. It was way past time and nearing the danger level.

I am 40 miles away from the Hertz rental car center. So I tried to call them, but I was told that the number did not exist. I was not going to pay for two new tires out of my own pocket, and I needed a voucher to get it done. So, I drove there, praying the whole way.

I got to the rental office, and all of their computer systems were down, and they had no idea when it was going to come back up. But I was assured that it usually doesn't take more than an hour or so. So I waited around.

After about an hour, the young man at the desk came over to me and told me that truthfully they just don't know when it's going to come back up and he can't give out any vouchers until it does, but, I could call this number that he gave me and they could fix one up and email it to me.

He could have told me that an hour before that!

So I called the number and I got the voucher and I went back to Denton to the Discount Tire that had told me I needed two new tires.

It took about an hour and a half for them to finally get me serviced. By then it was about 1:00 p.m.

Once again, half of my day had been wasted on maintenance. This time on a vehicle that I didn't even own. LOL

Once the tires were fixed, I drove to Walmart because I was out of tea. I had to park quite a ways away because the parking lot was so full. I got my tea, which was regular sweet tea and not extra sweet tea because they didn't have the extra sweet tea. But any tea is good tea, as long as it's sweet, in my book. LOL

I got a phone call from a bill collector, who is wanting me to pay a past due medical bill. It was only $60 and they had been trying to call me for a while. So I went ahead and paid it since I have the money. She asked me if there was anything she could help me with after that, I said, "nope. Except, I would like for you to stop calling me. LOL" and yes, she laughed.

I also bought some basic necessities that I was out of that I didn't get the other day. Hopefully I'm fixed up for a while.

Then I went and ate at the Cotton patch. It was really good food. I was especially impressed with their fried Green tomatoes. But, I had asked for an avocado bacon cheeseburger that was on the menu. When I got the burger it had no avocado on it. When I told the waiter, he said the avocado only comes on it if you request it.

Duh! Did I not ask for an avocado bacon cheeseburger? Is that not requesting avocado? He only got a dollar tip.

Then I finally went to work. There were back to back Lyft rides. Half of them canceled on me before I could get to them. And I kept working myself closer and closer to the Dallas area. 

By the time I got halfway to Dallas, Lyft navigation went crazy. I'm in a town that I do not know the roads, and I have to listen to her. But she was so confusing! I could be sitting there at the light and she would tell me, "turn right. Go 150 ft turn left. Turn right, then turn left", and I hadn't even moved yet. I had no idea which way to go! And the passengers I had in my backseat did not speak English.

I finally got them where they wanted to go and then I picked up a guy going to Love Field airport. When he got in the car I told him I was so glad that he spoke English because I needed a backseat driver! I explained to him why it took me so long to find him, and asked him to help me with navigation.

He pulled out his Google. He was telling me what Lane to go into and where to turn, warning me not to listen to her on the app, and then he said, "I am so sorry for being a backseat driver! I know I'm bad!"

I exclaimed, "No! Don't apologize! I need you to be a backseat driver! You hear what I'm going through? LOL"

Normally I hate backseat drivers. But I really appreciated him. And he even tipped me $10.

After I dropped him off I came back to Denton. It was an hour drive. How did I end up that far away so quick?

I'm done for the day. You'll be glad to know that I did not break down and buy a pack of cigarettes, even though I wanted to really bad.

So I think I'm going to sit here for the rest of the night and just relax.

I've made all but $77 that I need to pay for my rental. 

Y'all have a blessed night!

Wednesday, January 10, 2024

Birds and Rentals

I was really nervous today.

But everything turned out a whole lot easier than I thought it was going to be. All I did was go in, present my insurance, my driver's license, and my Lyft app on my phone, and they gave me the keys and told me to make sure that I do whatever maintenance is needed.

By the way, I don't have to pay for the maintenance. I just have to make sure it's done.

I had to find a storage unit that would house my car for me while I'm out on the road in a rental. You would think that they would let me park it on their lot since I'm driving their car. But, I was able to find one approximately a mile away from the rental company, which was convenient.

I went and ate, and then I started my day after I drove to Denton, Texas.

It was only a 35 mile drive.

Then I turned the apps on.

I really like working in Denton.

It's so much busier than Texarkana! And, there is so many more new things to do and see!

Eventually I'll have to go back to Texarkana to check my mail. I'll do that at the end of the month. I have to pay for my mailbox anyway. I also need to grab my suitcase. I grabbed about three changes of clothes and put them in a garbage bag, because I figured it would take less room. I think the suitcase probably would have been a better idea. LOL

My plan is to get some of these bills paid off, and then get a room.

Y'all have a blessed night!


Check out these birds at the Love's where I'm sleeping tonight! It reminds me of something out of a Stephen King novel.

Tuesday, January 9, 2024

Following God's Calling

Good morning, World!

I just paid off my revolving Reli loan at my bank. Now I have another $1,500 available when I need it. I still have $1,100 in my bank account. I transferred $100 to my brokerage account last night. I got gas in my car.

I'm going by Walmart to buy some basic necessities that I'm out of. Then I've got to go buy a vape.

Then I'm going to go get something to eat. All I had to eat all day yesterday was a bag of chips and some bean dip. Believe it or not!

Then I've got to go by my storage unit and pack up for my trip.

After that, I'm headed to Bedford, Texas to pick up my rental car. None too soon, I might add. When I filled up my car this morning it said I only had 285 MI in my tank. Something ain't right there. It's usually 100 mi more than that.

I'll probably end up getting a storage unit to house my car while I am driving the rental. That's going to cost me another $75.

At least I don't have to pay my Reli loan, and my Elastic isn't due until February. I figured I should pay off my revolving loans first, that way if I need the money I have it. Elastic and Reli are my two revolving loans. Those two will help me stay caught up on my bills until pay them off.

I'll have gas and food money until I get paid again, after I get all my bills caught up to the present. I'll only be paid once a week so I have to prepare.

It feels good to be caught up on most of my bills.

I have one bill I haven't paid anything on that I'm just going to pay off as soon as I get the money.

That's going to take work. But I'm not worried about it.

This Year is off to a great start! Just knowing that my bills are caught up and that I have a foothold, finally, really makes a difference! And, God has placed me in the position to do what it is He is calling me to do!

That is the best thing of all! I will finally get to start doing what I want to do for the Lord, using my occupation in which to do it!

All of those naysayers who told me that God was not calling me to do what I was planning on doing can eat crow now! He has led me to this place in the way that He wanted me to be there. He gave me no choice in the matter! When I was having doubts, He picked me up and threw me into it! I have learned some valuable lessons through all of this struggle. And I will need it on my journey!

Y'all have a blessed day! And, pray for me!

Sunday, January 7, 2024

Church versus Church Building

I just got blocked on somebody's website who is telling them that they need to go to church in order to be a good Christian.

She accused me of having a hard heart. Anyone who knows me knows that I do not have a hard heart.

If I did I wouldn't have taken offense at that.

But, I simply reminded her that going to church does not make you a Christian. My God is not displeased with me when I don't go to church. He is displeased with me when I don't act like I am a part of the church.

I will never tell anyone that they have to go to church in order to be a Christian. I will tell them they have to follow Jesus. I will never tell someone they have to go to church in order to learn God's word. I will, however, tell them that they have to read the Bible to learn God's word.

The church building is for those who need extra counseling. Some people do not like continuing their week without at least one day at the church in worship and praise alongside others who are there for the same reason. It is also for those who have questions that need answers about the Bible. The best place to get those answers is a Bible believing Church.

Some people are called to work inside the church building for that purpose. But not all people are called to the same. Everyone has a different calling.

Jesus said "Where two or more gathered together in my name there will I be also." Assembling with others does not have to be 100 people. It can only be you and one person in the car who are glorifying and praising the Lord together. It can be me and my passengers stopping to pray over their needs when they ask for it.

My church is wherever Jesus is. And He is not trapped in a church building.

Not one time in the whole Bible did Jesus ever say to go to church. His ministry was based on teaching believers how to BE the church.

I will never tell anyone not to go to church. But I will never tell them that going to church is the mark of a good christian.

And I am very appalled at the number of so-called Christians out there who are very adamant that if you are not going to church you are not a true Christian.

Friday, January 5, 2024

Happy Friday, January 5, 2024

Good morning, World!

I slept at the Flying J last night in Mandeville. It was really peaceful, and I actually found a place where the light wasn't shining in my eyes all night so I could sleep better.

Normally, I would try to wear a scarf over my eyes, but that gets old.

The bathroom was fairly close to the parking spot.

And it didn't start raining until after I went to the restroom about 3:00 this morning.

Apparently somehow, my trunk was opened after that, and when it started raining it rained inside my trunk. My suitcase was in my trunk. Luckily it was closed.

Everything got wet. I don't think the rain got through my suitcase though. And I had everything else in my car in the backseat. So no damage done there.

I don't know how the trunk was opened. I might have accidentally pushed the button when I tried to lock my door. If it was a burglar, he didn't find anything to steal, apparently.

In my dream last night, I believe that God was telling me that my situation is nearly over. That I will experience new things and certain problems will be resolved.

I was told to search within myself and make necessary changes that will be beneficial to my future.

I was told that all of what is happening and what will happen is a part of God's plan.

I was told that I need to diligently search for answers to my questions. And I need to be true to my boundaries and confident that God is in control.

Very soon, I will be in a position where I can make a difference in other people's lives, and I need to be careful how I handle the power that is going to be given me. 

The days of oppression are nearly over.

I pray that all of this is true!

I'm not going to be able to work much today if it keeps raining.

Y'all have a blessed day!

Thursday, January 4, 2024

Trying to get my insurance paid

Good morning, World!

I'm on my way to my storage unit. I just got freshened up at the E-Z Mart down the road from the rest area.

Tonight is laundry night. I have to do laundry tonight.

And today my focus is going to be on putting money in my bank account so that whenever my insurance comes out in a few days it will go through.

I don't have a backup balance to pay anymore, and I actually have a few bucks on my card now.

I'm looking for a better day today than I had yesterday, even though yesterday was really good. I want it to be at least as good.

I uninstalled all of the games on my phone. I just think that I need to start looking around instead of down at my phone all the time.

I had a dream last night. I had asked God to speak to me before I went to sleep. He sent me a message through imagery in my dream. I know it was prophetic because it was clear.

It was a picture of a king dressed in purple and green, and the message was,
"You are not in control, I am."

I don't know why he thought he had to tell me that. As if I didn't already know it. But I'll take it!

Y'all have a blessed day!

At 9:00 a.m., I went ahead and paid for my storage unit. That left me about $4 that I have to pay back to my Uber backup balance because I didn't quite have the money in my Uber card. But at least it's paid.