Friday, November 27, 2020

One Step Away

Sometimes you just have to realize that it's time to lean back, accept reality and embrace the present. To focus on what might be in light of what has been seems redundant and a waste of time. It is then that you become one step away from where you are supposed to be.

What might be will never be, what has been is gone. What is REAL is the present. Plan from the present one baby step at a time instead of 10 giant steps that may trip before you get there. You will find that disappointment is far less likely to happen, and when it does, it's easier to recover.

I will not spend my life wanting, hoping, working for something that is unobtainable. I see, right now, what I can have, and I am reaching only for that. When I get it, I will reach for the next thing. Each step I take will lead me right where I'm supposed to be.

In one year I plan to look back and see the giant step I've taken to get there, rather than look forward to the miles ahead of me.

And, I will feel victorious, once again!

Thursday, November 26, 2020

Happy Thanksgiving

This year has been especially hard for many of us here in the United States. From a pandemic brought on by Chinese carelessness, to the loss of loved ones around the globe, loss of businesses, loss of income, riots in the streets, uncertainty about the future and an obvious stolen election (which tops it all, because this is NOT the America we want to love!), 2020 has forever gained the title of "The year of no Toilet Paper".

But still, we have so much to be thankful for!

And no closure, no attempt to deny God His rightful place in all this, no amount of hatred against those who want nothing more than to love the traditions set forth by the founding fathers will stop our resolve to put aside our differences and be able to come together as family and friends, and fellow countrymen and women to say we are Thankful.

Here in my own home things have been rough this year. From dealing with pandemic rules, to debates with my housemates (who are on the opposite side of the political spectrum with their support), to rising food costs, meaning less food in the household (where one depends on a fixed Social Security income, another is unable to work and does not have the education or know-how to use technology in order to help himself get the necessary papers filed to have his own Social Security benefits started, and only one works in the household, but is barely able to pay the bills at this point), to dealing with job loss and finding suitable income just in time not to go under (Thank God Almighty!), we still have a LOT to be thankful for.

So, I spent the last of my money that was in the bank today -- determined that we were going to celebrate Thanksgiving somehow.

I bought some rotissouri chicken, some Welch's Sparkling Rose Soda, a big can of baked beans and a tub of potato salad, a loaf of bread, some cream for coffee and sugar for tea, and a couple of packages of Reese's Cups for dessert. It was all I could afford -- but it filled all three of us up.

We were thankful. We still have our health amidst the pandemic. We still talk to each other and show support where necessary in order to get through each day. We may argue political viewpoints, even yell at each other at times before stomping to our rooms, but at the end of the day we make sure we are all fed, warm and safe from the evil of the world outside the door to our home, no matter how much it may be falling apart. We have a God who is bigger than all of our fears, who will provide as our needs arise. And, here in America, there is still opportunity for growth (for the time being), so finding work has not proven too big of a challenge for me.

We have a LOT to be thankful for.

So, I was determined to have Thanksgiving. And, the guys REALLY appreciated it. I saw their depressed spirits visibly take form and rise with-in them as they smiled, and we ate, drank and were thankful together for this day and each other.

It was a welcomed atmosphere, and well worth the cost.

Happy Thanksgiving to all of you. May yours be at least as blessed as ours!

Saturday, November 14, 2020

Thank You Lord, For Your Blessings On Me!

Thanksgiving is coming soon. This year, I fore-went the usual "post something you are thankful for each day until Thanksgiving" tradition.

But, today, I'd like to Thank Jesus for, once again, helping me find a way when there didn't seem a way.

Thank You, Jesus, for my new position financially.

Thank You, Jesus, for old friends, new friends, the opportunity to make friends, and all the other people you put into my life to pray for!

Thank You, Jesus, for my family, who holds me up and gives me a compass when I can't seem to get it together.

Thank You, Jesus, for my health -- mentally and physically.

Most of all, Jesus, Thank YOU for my salvation and my hope!

Without YOU I am NOTHING! Without YOU I am weak. Without YOU I have nothing to look forward to, no hope, no reason to exist.

When I am at my lowest, I find myself on my knees, praising YOU -- because I am still alive. I still get to wake up tomorrow. Therefore, I know, there is a REASON I am still here, and that YOU won't let me drown, and it gives me the strength to keep climbing -- no matter how steep the climb.

So, today is about YOU, dear sweet Jesus!


Thursday, November 12, 2020

Bright Future

I think I've found my niche'.

I recently applied to be an Uber Driver. I didn't think it would amount to anything more than just "pocket money"; but, the more I look into it and study it, the more potential I see in actually making a good living at it!

I can travel anywhere in my state to work. It will be the thing that helps me accomplish my dreams! I will be able to visit every town in Texas, see the homeless shelters, visit the churches, make new friends, and even sell my Avon while I am at it! And, all the while, I will be getting paid!

The best thing about it is that I can sleep late, work late, work as little or as much as I want, take time off to spend with family and friends (I can now accept all those invitations to gatherings I've been seeing!

I can get involved. I can embrace. I can feel GOOD doing it!

And, I can pay off my debts.

I can GIVE!

THAT, more than anything, is what I will like about it!

I am SO looking forward to this!

If this works out, then getting fired from my job at the Pitt Grill was the BEST thing that ever happened to me!

Every Step of the Way

Me and Donald Trump have SO MUCH IN COMMON!

I can't count the number of times I've been told something was impossible.

"Your life is over."
"President of what?"
"You probably aren't hire-able anywhere"
"You don't have the skills"
"You need to find a good man to take care of you or you won't survive".
"You will never amount to anything"
"You are nothing but red-neck trash"
"You are so ungrateful"
"You don't have what it takes"
"You are ALWAYS going to be alone"
"Nobody likes you."
"You stink"
"You are too slow"
"You aren't smart enough"
"You have a bad reputation"
"That will NEVER happen"
"You are ugly."
"You are too rude."
"You are too uncouth"
"You are too greedy."
"You are too selfish."

If I had listened to all that, I would have never done half the things I've done in my life. I would have never had half of the experiences I've had, and I would have NO HOPE right now.

I will NOT lay down and give up. I will fight until the day I die.

And, I WILL survive until God sees fit to stop me.

But...dang...sometimes I get SO tired of working to prove everyone WRONG!

So many times I've heard it...

"You never listen to anyone!" (Thank GOD!)

and then,

"How did YOU ever get where you are?"

I'll tell you how:

I believed in God when I couldn't believe in myself.
I fought every step of the way to get here.

I am not rich. I may be homeless in a month or two -- again. I am getting old. I am not strong. I don't have lots of talent. I am not famous.

But, I am ME. And, I am alive. I am not hungry. I am not cold. I am not sickly. I am not a weakling. I wake up every morning to fight through another say I did SOMETHING productive, no matter how small.

To start over, if I need to.

Success is not how much money you make or what you own or how well you are known. Success is the ability to survive and still love with all you have, even in the face of hate and resistance.

Wednesday, November 11, 2020

When God Has Another Plan...

Hello, World!

Yes, the election has me depressed -- I'm sure like so many others who feel disenfranchised. But, I'm still praying. God is in control, no matter who wins...and I don't always have to like God's plan. I just need to accept that there is a good reason for it!

I lost my beloved Pitt Grill job on the day after my birthday. If I was looking for a reason to transform myself, well, one jumped in my lap. LOL. I sure didn't think I'd be looking for a new job so soon.

I love selling Avon, but sales are slow and it isn't enough for me to do it as a sole source of income. So, I had to apply for SNAP benefits and Unemployment. I think I was supposed to request payment yesterday, but failed to. I have to wait until tomorrow before I can do so.

I also think I may have one more small paycheck coming on Monday.

Me, being the resourceful enterpriser that I am, though, I started looking for other ways to make a little money on the side.

I signed up to drive for Uber. I wanted to deliver for Uber Eats, but they don't have anything going on in my neck of the woods. I am currently waiting on my background check to go through (the last step toward acceptance into the program). I also applied for a delivery job with another company -- WAITr. I was accepted today, and will try to start experimenting with the app tomorrow.

After I clean out my car. LOL

Hopefully my background check will have gone through by then, too.

I am also looking for other opportunities to make money, both on and off-line. Stay tuned for updates about that!

In my personal life, I've decided that life is what it is. No sense trying to force your way through anything, because everything works on God's time table. So, now I'm just drifting ... and smelling the roses as I go.

Have a blessed day!

Wednesday, November 4, 2020

Social Awakening

This country is full of idiots. It is OFFICIAL. I really thought we were better than this.

It's okay. My focus is now in concrete for the next 4 years.

Small business is ruined now. Economy is ruined. Freedom is gone. Oppression is eminent. Jobs will decline. Poverty will grow.

Enjoy your communist take-over of America.

YOU let it happen.

For those of you who voted Democrat because you thought you were going to get another stimulus check for doing so...

Good luck with that. I HIGHLY doubt you will ever see it. You would have been better off voting for Trump. At least he would have TRIED to get you one.

Now all the rioting will stop, but the persecution will grow. People will be attacked simply for who they are and what they believe and the government will not help you.

Oh...when you all get tired of the status quo that is eminent, remember:


Daniel 8:25
“And through his policy also he shall cause craft to prosper in his hand; and he shall magnify himself in his heart, and by peace shall destroy many: he shall also stand up against the Prince of princes; but he shall be broken without hand.”

Thursday, October 29, 2020

Moving on...

I am in the process of "transforming" myself into something better. I got a new hair cut, started wearing a little make-up, smiling more, engaging in more conversation, going out more, and a myriad of other things that make me different than I was two weeks ago.

I am in no way doing this because I am trying to find someone to be a companion to. I am, however, opening myself up more to finding friends. If I should ever find myself involved in a relationship, it is going to be with someone who I am best friends with, first.

And, I am not trying to be something I am not. I am -- more -- trying to become what I should already be. I was talking to a friend today who is trying to encourage me to go out and find someone. I have another friend who is trying to play matchmaker with me.

I am not interested. I really like my life.

A customer asked me tonight if I was aiming to catch a man with my new "do". I told him, "not at all." He told me if I didn't watch it, I would do it anyway. (He's happily married, so it was a "safe" conversation).

If there's one thing I've learned it's that suffering from heartbreak and suffering from loneliness are two different things.

If I go and get someone else because I'm suffering from heartbreak that's revenge. If I go and get someone because I'm suffering from loneliness that's desperation.

I'm not doing either. Either way it's not fair to the person I'm doing it with.

If I am seeking a relationship it's going to be one that is genuine and real. I don't want to give someone left-overs of who I am . I want to give someone special everything I am.

At least this way, I can honestly say that the man who passes me up has passed up something real.

And, if I never find what it is I am looking for I'll be just as happy. I am all I need to be for me. And, God is everything else.

Tuesday, October 20, 2020

Sometimes I Cry

Sometimes I mess up in my life. When I do, I find out that I have a choice to make - once it is all said and done.

I can wallow in my hurt, refuse to admit I had done wrong; grab hold of anything that defends my actions and keep trying to beat my head against a brick wall.

Or, I can focus on something else that is just as destructive to my state of being, try to do the same thing in a new setting and hope for different results. Go insane...

OR, I can give it to God. Turn back to where I know I should be and go from there. I can let HIM change the situation, remove me from the valley, become who I should be in spite of the pain -- until the pain is completely gone.

But, still, there are tears of regret and longing.

It is these times I find myself on my knees trying to make sense of it all; until I realize that I don't have to.

If God brought me to it, He will walk me through it. I realize, at this point, that the reason I am in the state of mind that I am in is because I should have not tried to take the lead. I should not have ventured off the path He set me on. I should not have tried to grab hold to what God had already put behind me.

Where ever He leads, I should follow. At least this way, I am safe from the potholes of life as He walks me around them.

I still need to heal from the consequences of my latest stupidity. But, I am allowing God to strengthen me for the journey ahead.

I am still alive. That is something. That means that God isn't through with me yet.

Thank God!

This song is totally me!

Monday, October 19, 2020


This post was originally written on October 19, 2015. Five years ago. Still true today for me, so I thought I'd share.

Broken? No. I never considered myself broken. I shook my fist a lot at a world that was unfair and deceptive. But, something in me just kept saying that life is what you make it. And, it's gotta start somewhere. The buck stops here. And, so forth.

I made the Bible my guidebook, even when I wasn't following Jesus the way I should have been. I trusted that there was a God and that He knew better than I did...or even my parents did. I determined to have faith, even when I didn't believe.

I saw things with the eyes of someone of scrutiny. I kept my back to the wall, and never went into a crowded place without knowing where the door was. And, I watched. I treaded the waters lightly.

Every now and then I would jump in head first, determined to sink or swim. Sometimes I thought I would drown...other times, I found a rock to stand on. All the time, I overcame the current.

At first, I was angry. My anger started turning to bitterness. Then, I realized that the sunrise on every new day was majestic -- and that beauty was in the eye of the beholder. I had a choice to make.

Life is what it is. Sometimes you sink, sometimes you swim. But, sometimes, if you just float, you can take the time to enjoy the scenery, breathe easier, smell the fresh air.

I chose to be grateful in spite of not having all I want. I chose to accept what I was given, rather than covet what would never be mine. I chose to love, in spite of the pain; to laugh, in spite of the tears. to get up and move forward, rather than to lay there and move nowhere; to earn, rather than to demand; to show love, rather than indifference; to forgive, rather than to expect, and to experience, rather than to fear.

I look in the mirror today and I don't see a survivor, The fact that I am still there in the mirror looking back at myself tells me that the struggle was worth it, and I am an OVERCOMER.

Monday, October 12, 2020

Ten Things I've Learned in My 51st Year of Life 2020

Every year I post the ten top things I learned sometime during my birth month. My birthday is October 30. I will be 52 years old. (Yes, I am not ashamed to post it, because everyone who knows me knows I'm real). This year is no different.

Here goes:

10. God is in control of everything. I already knew this, but this year I felt it BIG TIME...I did a lot of arguing and begging this year with God.

9. Letting go is the most unselfish thing you can do.

8. True friendships don't thrive on Facebook. True friendship can only be cultivated face to face.

7. When you make a wrong turn and the road leads you to an impasse, it's best to go back where you started in order to figure out where you went wrong, and go a different direction.

6. Your boundaries are what builds respect from others.

5. Boundaries are not to protect you from others, but to protect you from yourself.

4. The fire of true love never completely dies. It might fade into the background over time, but is easily rekindled under the right circumstances.

3. Sometimes the truth isn't enough.

2. You can't worry about what other people will feel about your decision to be happy. If they truly love you, then they will support your decision, even if it takes you away from them. Making everyone else happy doesn't do anything for your own self respect and ends in wishful thinking.

1. God is stronger than I am.

Sunday, October 11, 2020

Not My Way

Today, I stood up. I dusted myself off. I determined that no matter the pain, I was not going to settle for playing second fiddle to what I deserve.

I may not get what I want by doing this, but at least I know where I stand. And, if I can't have what I want, then it only means that God has other plans for me -- even if they are not the plans I want Him to have for me. I know God knows what's best for me. I know that His ways are not my ways, and His thoughts are not my thoughts, and I am an imperfect woman who serves a perfect God.

I also know that His plans are to prosper me and not harm me, to give me hope and a future. (Jeremiah 29:11). Even if it isn't what I want right now.

I know that He counts my tears. He covers my shame. And, best of all, He fights my battles for me.

I also know that He answers prayers.

So, I stood up and stepped forward, putting one foot in front of the other and determined not to look back. I only want what is in front of me from now on.

I want what is with-in my reach.

And, just like what I left behind me, I want it RIGHT.

If what I come to from here on out does not fit my definition of what is right for me, I will put one foot in front of the other and keep moving on.

Maybe some day "right" will finally run catch up with me, or I will find it on my way. Until then, I will keep climbing.

Someone once told me that I always rise to the top no matter what I do. I am not just a bubble in the soda...No. I am the whipped cream on top. And, I aim to stay that way.

No one is going to drag my spirit down anymore.

I choose to be grateful, loveable, joyful, peaceful, and yes, still hopeful.

Thursday, September 24, 2020

Looking for a Relationship with Me Rule #1: Hello Beautiful

This guy private messaged me: "Hello, Beautiful!"

How do I respond?

I ignore him.


When a guy says, "Hello, Beautiful" I know he is after something other than my personality, because he doesn't even know me.


Get to know me. Go on facebook and check out my timeline. Start a conversation about something I posted in one of my groups. And be sincere about it. Don't just ask a question to get a response. Not happening. You have to peak MY interest.

"Hello Beautiful" is way over-used and just hits me wrong in the beginning. Too familiar.

After you get to know me well, THEN I'll be flattered if you still call me "Beautiful".

Tuesday, September 22, 2020


An old friend of mine contacted me last night on private message. I was just about to go to bed.

It was a nice conversation, for a change. It was all words, granted, but it sure made me feel better.

There was nothing out of the way. No insinuations or promises to be broken. Just light conversation that was much needed probably for both of us.

And, a reminder of who I was.

I think I needed that more than anything. It's amazing how a simple, enjoyable conversation with someone can be so refreshing -- and how it can rejuvenate your spirit and remind you of where you are supposed to be.

I woke up this morning, still feeling numb, but I got up and moved around. I got in my car and took the trip to the bank with Pandora blairing Christian music in my headphones.

It was as if every song that came on was meant for me to hear.

It was God talking to me, telling me what I needed to hear.

And I prayed.

I prayed for forgiveness, and I prayed that God would make my reactions as they should be, and that He would revive my "want to". I told Him, honestly, "I don't know how to feel right, right now. I can't control my emotions. I know what is right to do, Lord, so I'm determined to do that, and I give the outcome to You."

The first song that played on Pandora today was "Control" by Tenth Avenue.

It was as if God heard me. It was God telling me He knew how I felt. He understood where I am. And, He loved me, anyway. Here were my instructions.

I know me. I know I am going to mess up again, eventually. But, I also know that He does too. And, He loves me, anyway.

Friday, September 18, 2020

Me and Jesus

Hello, World.

I got off work an hour ago and came home and realized that I needed to wash clothes. I don't have anything to wear that is clean tomorrow, and I have to work tomorrow.

I was going to go out and sell my Avon, but instead, I'm just going to sit home and relax -- and wash and put away my clothes.

I have decided to focus on my business when I am not at work. No more itching to go out with someone or hanging out with friends. Most people I hang around when I do go out are drama magnets, and I prefer the quiet solitude of just me and God.

And, every guy who has asked me out in the past two years either ONLY wants one thing from me that I can't give anymore without a commitment, or there is something else wrong with him. I'm just not into drunks, drug addicts, financially needy men, swingers, clingers, atheists, agnostics, entitled personalities or Democrats.

That kind've thins out the dating pool too much for me.

I'm just better off staying single and married to Jesus.

I refuse to be used. I don't have that kind of need. And, if I do, I'm not going to take it out in trade with some egotistical, over-confident, or emotionally (or otherwise) unavailable man.

And, my heart cannot take another beating.

So, I'm going to focus on me and God from now on. Maybe someday God will send the miracle I have been praying for. But, I hate to say it, time is no friend to me. And, I am to the point that I believe God doesn't want me to be anything but HIS.

Please save your "Just give it time" and "Don't give up he's out there" speeches. I don't want to hear it and I don't want to argue about it. I am HONESTLY NOT INTERESTED anymore, and it would DEFINITELY take a miracle at this point to get my attention.

I guess I'm just too old -- mentally at least.

So, I look forward to being happy again. There is nothing on earth that can make me more unhappy than wanting something I can't have, and finally losing hope. So now, I just won't hope again. I'm not strong enough to handle the negative consequences anymore.

This is not a pity party, so don't get the wrong idea. This is simply a decision. A FIRM decision.

I wish you all a very blessed day! MINE IS!

Saturday, August 29, 2020

Tough: If You are Going through Hell, Just Keep on Going!

I was raised that unless I was too sick to get out of bed and walk to the bathroom on my own, I was going to go to school.

I was raised that if I didn't eat all my supper, I'd get it for breakfast.

I was raised that if I whined about anything, I'd get something from my mom to cry about.

I was raised that if I fell down and scraped my knees, rather than being coddled and babied, I was told to get up, dust myself off and keep going.

I was raised that if I didn't work, I didn't eat.

I was raised that if I made my bed, I slept in it.

I was raised that if I wanted something, I had to earn it.

I was raised that if I lost the race, there was no trophy to take home. The only recognition I was afforded was that I didn't stop until I crossed the finish line. If I stopped before then, I was labeled a "quitter" -- whether I won or lost.

I was raised to not have excuses. There is a solution to every problem. Where there is a will there is a way. (Some people wonder where I got my "stubbornness" from).

I was raised not to fight -- but if attacked, and I didn't fight back, I was busted again when I got home. And, if I got into a fight with family, I was forced to fight them until we couldn't fight anymore in the front yard. (Okay, that didn't happen, but it was threatened at one point...LOL)

I was raised that if I was working, and I was tired, not to complain until I was finished with my work. Tiredness was no excuse not to do what needed to be done.

And I was raised without praise for doing my chores. Why be thanked for what I should already be doing in the first place?

I was raised that the ONLY time I went to a doctor was if there was something I could not fix on my own -- like a broken bone, a concussion, or an illness that was getting worse no matter what I was doing, not better.

And a scar was just a permanent trophy of my toughness -- not my beauty, which went hand in hand with "never judge a book by its cover" and "beauty is only skin deep"

I was taught to face my fears and that if I am going through hell, to keep on going.

I have had people tell me I am the strongest person they know.

Well, this is why.

FYI: Toughness isn't something you are born with. It is something you learn.

To hear some people talk, all of the above could be considered child abuse. In my opinion, raising children who refuse to take personal responsibility who are weak-minded and full of complaints and thinking they are entitled is the worse abuse you could put on a child. The American Spirit only thrives in toughness.

Friday, August 28, 2020

Home School Champion

If I was still home schooling, I would have made it mandatory for my children to watch every minute of the Republican National Convention of 2020 AFTER watching the DNC 2020. Then, we would have discussed what we had heard and what their opinions were and why. We would discuss their concerns. I would see through their eyes, then I would give them mine as a result.

I recall when I stood before the Austin Commissioner's Court after Commissioner Karen Sunlightner remarked on television when my children were watching one day that "Homeschoolers are nothing more than trailer trash that don't even own property."

We lived in a beautiful 3 bedroom home with a big back yard that we were buying at the time. My husband worked for one of the biggest law firms in the country.

5 minutes later, I was standing before her demanding that she apologize to my children who were watching her -- while they were still at home, watching their mother defend them AND their education!

I told her that day, "Miss Sunlightner, I am raising my children to be LEADERS, not FOLLOWERS. THAT is why I home school!"

My 5 year old son met me at the door when I drove back into our driveway after. The look in his eyes as he ran and hugged me, I will NEVER EVER FORGET!

"THAT'S MY MOMMA!" they seemed to say!

If I had any question in my mind as to whether or not I did the right thing that day in front of my children, it was answered right then and there.

Below is a rendition of what homeschooling is like for COVID 19 parents. The difference between doing it because you want to and because you have to is right there. I would do it again in a heartbeat. I wouldn't trade the quality time with my kids for the world.

I was a REAL Home School Champion!

Wednesday, August 19, 2020

Pocket Full of Sunshine

Hello, World!

It's been a bit since I updated this blog, hasn't it?

Well, I returned to work at the Pitt Grill, where I am now working the day shift -- and helping to train all of the other shifts to do their job correctly. The manager left, then one assistant manager quit, then the other quit, and I just happened to be the strongest cook they had so I got promoted to day shift -- which I LOVE, by the way!

Today my boss showed me a little bit about how to count the drawers down, which, I haven't done because I am not a waitress - I'm a cook.

I splashed oil from flipping an egg into my face today. My boss just look at me when I hollered out in pain. I told him he should give me a raise for not cussing. LOL I'm just glad I had my glasses on so none of it got in my eyes.

I was afraid I would have a bubble come up on my face, but other than a little discoloration, it didn't happen. I can still feel where it burned me, but it's going to be okay.

Three days ago my computer crashed. I had to sell some of my mutual funds to ensure that I could pay my lot rent on my mobile home so I could buy a new computer -- which seemed impossible. I went to four different stores and none of them had any computers with-in my budget available. Both Walmarts were completely sold out even.

Today after work, I went back to the local Walmart and was happy to see that they actually had some computers available! I bought a Hewlett Packard Laptop.

After setting it up at home, I was finally able to place my Avon order and catch up on some work I have not been able to do online. Still got some catching up to do, but I'm done for the day.

My "imaginary friend" (I call him imaginary because I never get to see him) brought me a burn barrel to burn some yard trash in. I've been making real good use of that on an almost daily basis. Best thing I've acquired in a while, besides my computer!

And, I'm back to buying stocks again. I figure I need to start saving money for things like paying off medical bills and getting my plumbing at home fixed.

I'm in a really good place right now.

I hope I stay there.

Have a blessed day!

Tuesday, August 11, 2020

Why did God tell Hosea to Marry a Prostitute?

I read the book of Hosea, and I have thought and thought about it: WHY in the WORLD would God want Hosea to marry a prostitute? According to the story he had nothing but bad with her.

I can understand that God wanted to teach Hosea to love like God. But for what purpose? What did all this accomplish for anyone but Hosea?

Then, I started thinking about all the things out there that people did saying that they felt they were "led by God", but it didn't turn out so well. And, I remember my pastor at the 1st Bikers Church in Texarkana preaching that we should always be SURE we are being led by God before we act, that God would never lead us to do anything that went against His Will...and you can find His Will in the Bible.

I wonder what scriptures led Hosea to marry a prostitute? (Which also made me wonder if, in fact, maybe all those people who went wayward, thinking they were led by God, may have really been led by God!)

FINALLY, it dawned on me that it wasn't the fact that he married a prostitute that was the lesson -- and aside from learning how to love like God, the assignment wasn't the prostitute AT ALL!


The assignment Hosea was given by God was to TELL THE STORY.


ALL of us have gone and done some pretty wayward things and wondered how God could use our experience to teach a lesson.

The answer is this:

WE ALL HAVE A STORY TO TELL. And it is our story that leads others toward the right paths.

Saturday, August 1, 2020


God knows my heart. I've prayed until my tears can fill up a bucket.

I know God never ignores prayer. There are three answers God can give to any prayer: "Yes". "No." And, "Not right now."

I keep praying that His "No" is just a "Not right now." I also pray for a door to finally shut -- either the door in front of me, or the door behind me.

If the door behind me shuts, I have finally received what I have been praying so fervently for. I can move ahead with new life, and new energy...and new dreams.

I want for that door to shut so much!

If the door in front of me shuts, then I know there is no point in praying more for what I am hoping for. The decision has been made. It's final.

I want for that door to shut just as much!

I also know that God can open closed doors when He wants to. He has proven that to me time and again...but to know that the door in front of me is locked and sealed shut is to accept that I need to move on completely, without looking back at the struggle that got me there. To accept the futility of knocking any more. If it should open again in the future, then I will again be on my knees praying again. But, I want peace in my heart about the prayer for right now.

I just would rather have the pain of finality than the pain of the waiting for an answer.

God, however, expects patience.

I am reminded constantly that I am not God.

Thursday, July 30, 2020


After watching this video, I have come to realize that if I died today, I would die having no regrets, even though I feel I have failed in everything I have done most of my life.

I am reminded that my blessing is that I am able to try.

I am reminded that the worst regret in life is to know you had the opportunity to try, and failed to do so.

Even if you try and fail, where ever you end up is ALWAYS better than what you left behind, even if you have nothing to show for it physically or financially.

Every situation in life is training for the mountain that you haven't arrived at yet. When you finally arrive at that mountain, you should never not try to get to the other side. No matter how you have to accomplish it -- because just accomplishing it makes you stronger, better, and more able to master the next one.

I have done so much in my life. I look back on my life and see that, even though I have nothing to show for it, I have seen and done things that not many people I know have done. I have accomplished quite a bit more than most can say they have.

I have succeeded in becoming who I am.

The true definition of success is not in accomplishing, but trying.

Tuesday, July 28, 2020

Rule # 6 in Direct Selling: Be Consistent

I worked at a restaurant one time with an older lady who was well beyond retirement age. I was no spring chicken, but still had quite a few years left in me. Most of my co-workers were very young people just starting their journey in life on their own. Energy was rampant with them.

One of the complaints I heard often was that the older lady was "so slow." Younger people tend to not have the patience that I had learned in my experienced years already. Yet, before she finished her shift every day, the older lady had all of her work done. Always.

She was also dependable and on time every day.

We knew that we could always count on her because she was "consistent". And, consistency is FAR MORE IMPORTANT than speed.

In direct sales, this rule is no different. Your customers want to buy from someone who can be depended on to deliver. They want someone they can trust -- and that takes consistency.

So, whenever you are having a bad day and a regular customer calls you to make an order, you should ALWAYS present yourself with the same energy that won them over to you in the first place.

This builds trust and nurtures the relationships you grow to have over time with your customers.

Wednesday, July 22, 2020

Keeping Busy

I have been REAL busy lately, especially since I started back work at The Pitt Grill.

I like the hours there, but it's taking some getting used to, since I am still used to being awake at night hours.

I created a page so I could sell my Avon on Facebook, and I invested in some Facebook ads to see how it would do. It's safe to say that the ads have paid for themselves. I am planning on investing in more soon.

I've done some news gathering from press releases which I have posted at The Ponder News group, as well as a few newslinks, and updated my The Ponder News blog on blogspot as well.

I've done some advertising on traffic exchanges -- and some surfing to gain credits there...

My Avon sales are not slowing down, but they are not picking up much, either since I started working back at The Pitt Grill -- but at least my paycheck is steady right now. And, my bills are getting paid.

You know what they say, "it takes money to make money". Nothing can be further from the truth.

And, I've updated my website at The Ponder: Come Grow with Me! with some affiliate links I thought visitors might enjoy. I've added more pages to the website for easy navigation.

All this in just the last few days...

Oh, and I've made good use of my new burn barrel that my "imaginary friend" brought me. (I call him that because I never see him in person).

I've also visited with my mom and step-dad. I had some empty 5-gallon buckets to donate to them for use. They fish a lot and do a lot of charity work.

Well, guess I'm going to go and try not to do anything for a little bit and relax.

Have a blessed day!

Sunday, July 19, 2020

About Internet Relationships

The internet is a cowardly way of having a friendship. I want friendship with substance. I want to be able to look in someone's eyes when I'm talking to them. I want to be able to hug them if they need it physically and not just with an emoji. I want to see a genuine smile.

And if I accidentally hurt someone, I want to know it right then by the look on their face. I want to immediately respond. I want courageous honesty.

There is nothing more honest than face-to-face. And there is nothing more fulfilling then actually spending time with someone you care about.

if someone doesn't want to spend time with you off the internet, all it means is that they don't value you.

There is nothing more hurtful than realizing that you put more value into someone then they put into you.

You cannot build great memories over the internet.

Wednesday, July 15, 2020

Rule #5 in Direct Selling: Display Your Authenticity by Wearing a Uniform

People love authentic.

It is hard, in these evil times, to know whether someone is safe and authentic. In direct selling, this poses a problem.

People today are wary of strangers who knock at their door. You don't know if the person knocking is a bill collector, a homeless person asking for hand-outs, or someone casing your home for a possible robbery.

As an Avon sales person, I have experienced very suspicious people; even when I tell them I sell Avon.

So, I have remedied the situation. I made T-Shirts that display that I am an Avon Lady. I carry products and sales tools where they can be seen visibly. When they come to the door I say, "Hi! I'm Shonda. I sell Avon. Do you need an Avon Lady? I have Skin-so-Soft today!" (I have a basket of Avon brochures and SSS in one hand, and I hold up a bottle of the Skin-So-Soft in the other). There is no doubt that I am who I say I am. The look of "suspicion" is virtually non-existent.

I display confidence in myself, friendliness toward the customer, and loyalty to my product.

I have noticed that more people are willing to buy from you when they know you are serious about your business.

Nothing says serious like having a uniform on!

Friday, July 10, 2020

Heat, Shrimp, Advertising and Avon

Hello, World!

I am up, showered and ready to go out and sell some Avon and meet some new friends! I have already delivered all of my orders for the last campaign (except one...can't seem to get her to answer her phone...but I will!)

Yesterday, I took a break from the heat to work in the hot house and do some much needed cleaning. I took advantage of the opportunity to have some of my customers drop by and pick up their Avon,

I also created a page on Facebook for Shonda Ponder Enterprises, in which to post some ads and distribute my information better through Facebook. If it works out, I may be doing more in the future where it counts.

I have totally revamped my website for entrepreneur stuff. It's what I need and all I have time for now.

And, I played a little bit of Fallout NV. Got to do something enjoyable at times or it isn't a balanced life. Besides, shooting bad guys relieves stress.

I have until the 14th to pay my internet bill. Then, my next bill after that is due on the 24th, 26th, 30th, and then the cycle starts over on the 1st.

Praying I can do this.

Oh, and yesterday I was gifted with some fresh shrimp to eat. We cooked and ate that last night...Thanks, Jody!

Looking forward to seeing what today brings me!

Have a blessed day!

(And don't forget to visit my Avon Store!)

Monday, July 6, 2020

I Am YOUR Friend, Even When You Aren't Mine

If I am your friend, I will ALWAYS be your friend, even when you are not mine.

I might go away when I feel I am not wanted.

I might tell you things you don't want to hear, because it is the truth.

I might even tell you when you stink, or if that dress is ugly, or when I think you are messing up...

But I will NEVER stop being your friend.

I may not agree with something you are doing, but I don't stop being your friend. I just sit back and wait for you to finish what you are doing (and yeah, I like saying, "I told you so")

I believe in real love. I believe in TOUGH love. And I believe in lasting love.

If you ever find yourself in need of someone to talk to, someone to hug you, or just hang with and be quiet and enjoy the air...

I'm that kind friend.


Saturday, July 4, 2020

My Independence Day

Today is my Independence day. Today, I am letting go of everything that drags me down. I am letting go of everything that makes me unhappy.I am celebrating my life and determined to live a life.

I refuse to mourn over those who don't want me in their lives. I welcome those who do.I refuse to be sad over declined invitations and unfinished business. Instead, I will invite those who won't turn me down.

I am cleaning out the crowded areas of my life where I have placed importance where it ought not be. instead, I am focusing on things that are good and profitable for me.

It's a new day, it's the first day of the rest of my life. And, today is my Independence day.

Happy Fourth of July! Have a safe weekend!

... Oh, and have a nice life!

Sunday, June 28, 2020

Rule #4 in Direct Selling: Always Keep Staple Products On-Hand

I love selling Avon. The name alone sells itself.

Most people associate Avon with make-up, though. I can't count the number of times I've asked someone, "Do you need an Avon Lady?" who answered back with, "I don't wear that make-up. Sorry."

Avon is about so much more than make-up. Make-up is really only about 20% of what Avon sells. Heck, we even sell laundry detergent and dish washing liquid now!

But, the ONE THING that most people associate with Avon is their Skin-So-Soft Bath Oil. That stuff sells like hotcakes!

So, whenever I go out canvassing, I have made it a habit to carry the Bath Oil with me every where I go. I've asked people, "Do you need an Avon Lady?" And then I add, "I have Skin-So-Soft!"

The answer I get is sometimes, "No, thank you....WAIT A MINUTE, you have Skin-So-Soft? How much is it?"

I can't seem to keep it in stock.

And, I've gained a lot of great customers that way as well! "Here, take a book, too! If you run out, my number is on the back and you can order more!"

Check out the catalog, then click HERE to order anything online!

Saturday, June 20, 2020

Unfinished Business

This is for someone in particular who needs to hear it:

It's okay to grieve for unfinished business. But, don't EVER think that it is in your fate to ever see the finish of any business that walked away from you knowing how you felt.

Sometimes unfinished business is actually finished -- no matter how your heart feels or for how long.

It is better to just write it off as loss. Not for yourself, but for the one that walked away.

Go, live, be and do. You will never forget, but you can't dwell on the pain. Channel it. Become who you were meant to be. Let it do what it is supposed to do and make you stronger for it...and then don't EVER allow the business to get in front of you again.

To do so is to lose more of who you thought you were, who you grew to be -- and who you thought they were.

And, sometimes the memories are just sweeter without realizing that you were wrong in your perception.

In the end, you will be right where you are. The business you wished you could finish will still walk away knowing how you feel. Nothing is changed, accept now there is fresh pain.

Just remember, real life is not a fairy tale. Not all endings are happy ones. Not all business is meant to be "finished" to your approval.

Wednesday, June 17, 2020

Zero White Guilt

First of all, I love all of my black friends. And my red, yellow, brown and white ones. I hold NO discrimination in my heart.

What I am about to say may offend you, but I really don't care.

I never owned a slave. My grandparents never owned a slave. I never whipped a black person with a whip. I never hung one. I never treated anyone of a different color with anything but due respect as an equal.

Having said that, it will be a COLD DAY IN HELL before you will ever catch ME kneeling and asking for forgiveness for being white. I don't apologize for something someone else does. And I am dang sure not going to apologize for something that happened over 150 years ago when I wasn't even around.

So, if you ARE offended, I suggest you go look at your racist self in the mirror and do some soul searching. Because I AM OFFENDED if YOU expect ME to kneel for anyone but the God I serve.

God created me white. Jesus came to save us from sin, not skin.

BTW...if you want to get technical, I like probably 90% of all Americans today am a mutt. My grandpa was full blood Apache. I have german, irish, english, spanish and dutch in me. Oh, and yeah, a black slave about 10 generations back named Constance. So, get over the racist accusations.

If you want me to show solidarity, then how about showing solidarity by standing with me with your hand over your heart facing the American flag and saying the pledge of allegiance and meaning it. Because, you do not live in an African nation that is controlled by Muslims who still own slaves.

Monday, June 15, 2020

Rule # 3 in Direct Selling; Give yourself a weekly paycheck based on performance

It's all about making money, right? But, you only make money if you sell something.

Every week I keep a log of the hours I work. I keep another log of the sales I make. And, I keep a log of the products I buy to sell.

For now, because I am just starting, I give myself a set amount each week in pay. I get minimum wage - minus the taxes. For me, here in Texas, that is no more than $240.70 for a 40 hour week. However, that is ONLY if I am able to sell at least $882 worth of products each week.

This means I actually have to work at it.

Last week I worked a total of 12 hours selling Avon, including the time I spent doing inventory pricing and answering the telephone, making phone calls and updating my logs -- and watching educational videos at Avon U.

Since I only sold $239.98 worth of products, and minimum wage for me last week came up to $74.91 with taxes taken out and put aside, I am still short on what I need to pay myself this week (my profit is only $71.99, so it was too close to get discouraged about it!). Which means next week, I really need to try harder to make those sales!

As time goes by, though, and I am able to keep regular customers coming back and do more call-backs on established customers, that sales percentage will grow...and so will my pay. I am confident of that, just looking at these numbers!

And, minimum wage based on the hours that I worked is not a bad start!

Direct selling is not a get rich quick scheme. It is an honest living for an honest day's work. The only difference is that you get out of it exactly what you put into it. So, find what you enjoy to do and do it! Being happy isn't about the money, it's about enjoying life doing what you love to do!

I love Avon because it is easy to sell, it's flexible, and I see the fruits of my efforts -- and best of all, I get to KEEP my profits!

Click HERE to buy Avon

Saturday, June 13, 2020

Rule #2 in Direct Selling: Accommodate the Customer

The second rule to direct selling is to always accommodate the customer. If the customer wants you to sit with them for an hour to talk, do so. This is how you build rapport. This is how you get to know your customer's needs and desires. This is how you can make suggestions that they will be grateful for and buy.

I am thankful that the quarantine measures are easing. However, there is still need to accommodate.

For instance, yesterday, I knocked on doors at a senior living apartment complex. The first customer was sitting outside on her porch. She said, "You are an answer to prayer!" I sat with her nearly an hour as she browsed through my catalog, looked at the products in my basket I was carrying, and talking about her needs and her situation. By the time I left her, she had bought over $50 worth of products, half of it from the basket of products I had on-hand already. I am so glad I stayed and took the time to accommodate her!

The other day at Wal-mart, an elderly lady was putting groceries in her car. I asked her if she needed an Avon Lady. She said, "No, I need help getting this water into my car!" She was about a head shorter than me and very frail-looking and thin. I said, "Yes, ma'am! Let me help you with that!" She was grateful, and bought some Skin-so-Soft from me.

At another door at the senior living apartment complex I was at yesterday, a man answered the door. I introduced myself and offered to sell him some of the men's cologne in my basket. He asked me to come in. "I don't need the Avon, but my wife wants to see what you have!" I said, "Sure!" Then he handed me a disposable mask to wear and asked if I wouldn't mind putting it on first. Of course, I accommodated him! And, I sold another $10 worth of Avon while I was there. She asked if I had anything for arthritis in her feet. OF COURSE I did!

If you aren't willing to accommodate (and sometimes that means to serve) your customers, you aren't going to get very far in direct sales. Direct selling allows you to have versatility in how you serve your customers.

Friday, June 12, 2020

1st Rule of Success in Direct Selling: Don't stay home.

1st Rule of Success in Direct Selling:

Go where the customers are.

Don't stay home and hope the customers gravitate toward you. They will, but not as quick as you need them to.

You have to get out of the house, your car, or where ever you are stuck at and actually engage.

If you do not engage, you cannot communicate.

If you cannot communicate, you cannot advertise your wares.

If you do not advertise, you cannot close a sale.

If you cannot close a sale, you cannot make money.

If you cannot make money, you cannot pay your bills.

And if you cannot pay your bills, you cannot run a business.

And so the circle turns.

The more I study this guy, the more I like him. He's crude, obnoxious and ambitious. Aside from that, he is one of the greatest opportunists alive. Like me. Like I want to be. There is so much I can learn from him...while chewing the meat and spitting out the bones...

Wednesday, June 10, 2020

Time to go to work!

Hello, World!

My Avon shipment finally came in! Yay!

Today I will be walking the parking lots of nearby stores handing out brochures and flyers all day, and collecting phone numbers.

I will have my Skin-so-Soft products with me for anyone who wishes to buy some, as well as any other products I have on-hand.

I will start at the Wal-Mart in New Boston. I may move to other places as the day wears on, but we'll see how well I do.

I now have a face mask to wear so I can enter places that refuse service to anyone who doesn't have one.

If you are interested in Skin-So-Soft, call me! I have LOTS to sell, and if you are in the New Boston Area, I will be able to deliver immediately!

Ya'll have a blessed day!

Monday, June 8, 2020

Full Force at Avon Now

Hello, World.

Sunday morning I quit my job at the Pitt Grill. I have decided to go full force selling Avon. I figure if I am going to work so hard that my body is sore all over every night, for minimum wage pay, I should be working for myself -- and at least have the chance to move up in pay.

If I help build up someone's business with my customer service -- it should be MINE.

If I am miserable doing things the same way every day, I should have the power to change it.

So, I took my power back.

Currently, I have about $600 worth of Avon to sell on-hand. I have another $200 coming today, Monday. I have a set schedule and I've even made uniforms to work in -- T-shirts that tell the world that "I sell Skin-So-Soft! Ask me about Avon!"

I plan to take a road trip soon and sell Avon. I want to visit every homeless shelter in the State of Texas. I want to see every city in the State of Texas. I want to live.

Avon has gone completely digital now. There are no more mail-in orders or paper order forms. If you sign up to be an Avon Independent Sales Representative, you HAVE to have access to a computer -- or a phone that has access to the internet. You have to have a bank account in your name. And you have to have a social security number. All orders are made OVER THE INTERNET.

I am thankful I have a head start.

Of course, If you just want to order some Avon, you can still do so through me personally, if you live with-in my area of delivery.

But, I am transitioning to mainly bucket sales. Most of my customers who buy from me like to see the product before they buy it, so it is much easier for me to sell products that way. And, the brochures are too expensive to invest in, so I only have a limited number to give away per campaign.

Giving out my website address is easier and cheaper. Anyone can see the updated brochure ALL THE TIME if they just go to the website I provide on the back of my brochure, or my business card. And, if you want to be an Avon Lady, too, you can sign up right at my website, as well!

I have lots of Skin-So-Soft and hand lotions to sell -- as well as perfumes and shower gels, foot lotions and many other products. I'm making a list of all the things I need to order as I go, so feel free to tell me what you are looking for!

And finally, in this day and age, with COVID-19 and a bunch of rioting going on, it is so much safer to stay home and have products you need delivered directly to you. Avon has always had competitive prices for their products, too!

Visit my store by going to or check out the brochure below!

We have LOTS of great products for men now, AND LOTS of GREAT NEW PRODUCTS!

Avon is SO MUCH MORE than JUST make-up!

Have a blessed day!

Thursday, June 4, 2020

Love Thy Neighbor

Jesus said "Love thy neighbor as thyself".

He didn't say "Love thy neighbor who is white." Nor did He say, "Love thy neighbor who is Black."

Jesus did say that we should treat others as we wish to be treated. Somehow, I don't think being murdered because you are white and having your business destroyed because you make money with it and being attacked and targeted and killed because of your job is how anyone wants to be treated.

I don't think being burned alive is either.

So, I find it offensive to protect black people who are doing these things. I also find it offensive to protect white people who do these things. I find it offensive to protect ANY people who do these things.


Jesus didn't play favorites. He helped the Samaritan as well as the Jew. He gave His life for the sinner, not the skin color. He said to go into ALL THE WORLD not just places where certain colors reside.

When Jesus leaves the 99 sheep to go after the 1, He doesn't leave the 99 to go after a black sheep. He leaves the 99 to go after a LOST sheep. Doesn't matter what color it is.

A man who murders someone, whether they are white or black skinned, is called a murderer. Not a "black murderer" or a "white murderer" -- simply "murderer."


To say otherwise is just an excuse to be divisive and terroristic.

Wednesday, June 3, 2020

Road Trip, Avon and The Pitt

Hello, World.

I haven't updated this blog much lately, I've been so busy...and so tired.

Not sure if it is my great cooking, Luanne's great service, or the fact that people are making up for being stuck at home for the last couple of months, but we did more business at the Pitt Grill on graveyard shift last night than we normally do on a busy weekend night -- and it was only Tuesday!

But, I've officially put in my two weeks notice. I am going to focus on my Avon sales for awhile. My Avon business has been picking up as well.

I have decided it is time for me to take a road trip soon. I need to get away and enjoy the sites. I need to breathe. I need to miss home.

And, I need to see my kids.

I figure I can take a bunch of Avon to sell with me as I go, also.

I kind of want to wait until the rioting dies down first, though.

Well, I'm tard. (That's redneck for "I'm tired"). And, I still have to go to the bank.

Have a blessed day!

Friday, May 22, 2020

Good Business

Hello, World!

I have been really busy this past week. I got a REALLY big shipment of Skin-So-Soft Bath Oil in.

At the diner where I work, we are now open at 50% capacity to comply with the governor's EO. But, even at 25%, I think our business has doubled. We do more on graveyard shift now than we did before the virus came around.

I know I am TIRED when I get home in the mornings! But, it is nice to be working a normal schedule again.

I have about $60 worth of Avon to deliver. I haven't been able to get out much to sell, though.

My stock market account has grown over $100 more since last week. Right now I am focusing on getting rid of stocks that aren't working for me. I have to be careful with how I do that, because if I get rid of a bad stock too soon, it is called a "wash sale" and that prevents me from getting the tax break I should have for taking the loss. I am gaining more than I am losing, though.

Cannabis stocks are rising though. I guess the news that Cannabis has a positive effect on the treatment of COVID-19 has had an effect on the stock market value.

I got new shoes, but I am not happy with them. They just aren't as comfortable as my old shoes were. I'll get another pair next week.

I hope you all have a blessed day!

Wednesday, May 20, 2020

The Wolf of Wall Street

Recently, I decided to try my hand in the stock market.

When the stock market plummeted due to COVID-19, I decided that it would be a great time to invest in the stock market. As a matter of fact, I guess I sort of saw it as not only an opportunity, but my patriotic duty as well. I had to do my part to save the stock market and keep it from crashing. And, I prayed I wasn't the only person who thought like I did.

My thinking was, if I invested, and if enough people like me invested, the stock market wouldn't crash. This was the perfect time to invest, also. The stock market had nowhere to go but up.

So, I started out with $25.00.

I work as a cook at a local diner, and sometimes I get tipped. So, I figured, since I didn't make enough to be able to afford much, my tips was free money, and free money should be invested, not spent on bills. So, I started investing my tip money.

I started during the second week of March. By the middle of April, I had over $500 invested, as I sold and re-invested my stocks, learning all I could, and gleaning all of the information I could about my new hobby.

That is where I am now. It is May 20 and I currently have $820 invested. I watch the stock market and take advantage of any opportunity on a daily basis to grow my account. I sell Avon. And, I work graveyard shift as a cook at a local diner. I also rent my two extra bedrooms to two guys who are disabled and get a monthly check. I also do affiliate marketing online. So, I have a lot of cushioning, as well as irons in the fire.

Yesterday, I was talking to a co-worker at the diner about my new adventures in the stock market and what I have learned. She suggested I watch the movie "The Wolf of Wall Street"; so, i did. The movie inspired me to do some research on Jordan Belfort: The Wolf of Wall Street. I found out he has now become a motivational financial speaker. And, I was delighted to find that he even has his own podcast!

The Wolf Of Wall Street (movie Tie-in Edition)

The Wolf Of Wall Street (movie Tie-in Edition)


By day he made thousands of dollars a minute. By night he spent it as fast as he could. From the binge that sank a 170-foot motor yacht and ran up a $700,000 hotel tab, to the wife and kids waiting at home and the fast-talking, hard-partying young stockbrokers who called him king, here, in Jordan Belfort’s own words, is the story of the ill-fated genius they called the Wolf of Wall Street. In the 1990s, Belfort became one of the most infamous kingpins in American finance: a brilliant, conniving stock-chopper who led his merry mob on a wild ride out of Wall Street and into a massive office on Long Island. It’s an extraordinary story of greed, power, and excess that no one could invent: the tale of an ordinary guy who went from hustling Italian ices to making hundreds of millions—until it all came crashing down.
Praise for The Wolf of Wall Street

“Raw and frequently hilarious.”The New York Times
“A rollicking tale of [Jordan Belfort’s] rise to riches as head of the infamous boiler room Stratton Oakmont . . . proof that there are indeed second acts in American lives.”Forbes
“A cross between Tom Wolfe’s The Bonfire of the Vanities and Scorsese’s GoodFellas . . . Belfort has the Midas touch.”The Sunday Times (London)
“Entertaining as pulp fiction, real as a federal indictment . . . a hell of a read.”Kirkus Reviews

Tuesday, May 12, 2020

Avon, Kitten, Easter Eggs, Fish Fry and Lizards

I've had an eventful few days!

I've gone out to sell my Avon more. I've actually sold over $300 in the last week.

The diner where I work is seeing a lot more business (and we are SO glad to see that!) We had gotten so used to having no business, though, that it is taking some re-adjustment to get our minds and bodies working to receive it all "normally" again. I am NOT complaining!

I've had to order more Skin-So-Soft. I'm thinking about taking a Skin-So-Soft Road trip across the country soon. This time of year, I sell more Skin-So-Soft than anything. I can never seem to keep it in stock, no matter what time of year it is.

And, my hand lotions are big sellers in the restaurants, what with servers and cooks who wash their hands a lot and tend to get dry hands easily.

The perfumes are also always big sellers.

My web site makes it possible for me to save money on ordering new books.

Yesterday, I found a baby kitten under my car. Fred has named him "Tom". They are feeding and caring for him because he seems to have an eye infection and can't open his eyes. But he is really rambunctious and loves to explore.

I made sure the guys understood that we are NOT keeping him. We are just caring for him until he is well enough to put him back outside. Period.

I did spend nearly $20 on kitten milk and a bottle for him, though.

On Mother's day I spent some time with my Mom and my family. They had a fish fry at her house. The kids enjoyed riding her 4-wheeler. And, my greatest nephew, "Tank", as we've nicknamed him, found an Easter egg that was left over from Easter. He thought he had found gold.

Then his dad, my nephew, found a green lizard that was about as long as my hand, running across the back patio. He and his brother finally corralled it so he could show it to "Tank". When he picked it up by the tail, it turned around and bit him and held on to his finger. Calmly, my nephew said, "Okay, ya'll. Help me get this thing off my finger. It's starting to hurt."

The lizard apparently bit down harder when he tried to pull it away. It took my other nephew prying it's mouth open to remove it.

I told him, "Don't know what you were whining about. That thing don't have no teeth."

My bitten nephew said, "Like H*** it didn't! That s*** HURT!" LOL

It didn't even break the skin.

Milo and Otis (my baby-dogs) went with me. They ran around the yard, excited to be able to go see MeeMaw. At one point they disappeared. I went looking for them. The next door neighbors (my step-uncle and his family) were shooting their guns. I heard the gun shot and my stomach leapt through my throat. All I could think was "Please don't shoot my babies!" Then I saw Milo and Otis running as fast as they could back to me. Milo doesn't like loud sounds.

My step-dad said, "He wouldn't shoot those dogs." LOL

Then it was time to go home. I made sure to tell my Mom I loved her.

Ya'll have a blessed day!

Saturday, May 9, 2020

Mylee and the Chicks

I am so proud of my 11-year-old niece, Mylee. She has taken to raising Chickens over the past year or so. She has recently started collecting eggs to sell for $2 a dozen.

Her step-dad even went and got her a tax number so she could get her supplies tax-free. I told her, "Mylee, I'm so proud of you! YOU are now an official BUSINESS!"

She has been through dogs getting in the chicken pen, and snakes stealing her eggs. She has learned how to reinforce her cages and use nest eggs.

That has really been an experience for her. She uses the money to buy feed for her chickens. Just recently, though, she has decided to raise some of her own chicks.

She bought an incubator and had 42 eggs that were in it, waiting to hatch out.

Well, the other night, a big storm blew through. It knocked out her electricity. For four hours, the incubator was down. Her babies were in danger and she was frantic!

Her step-dad, Ronnie, called my mom -- who is just about 2 miles down the road from them. Mom's home still had electricity. So he loaded up Mylee and the incubator with all the eggs and transported them to Mom's house.

Mylee sat with the chicks all night until she fell asleep. She woke up with a surprise!

"MEEMAW!!!!" she screamed! "I GOT TWEETERS!"

Some of her chicks were hatched out.

I was so excited for her!

Learn how to build your own Chicken Coop!

Here is a video of some chicks hatching I found on YouTube!

Thursday, May 7, 2020

Wrestling with Politics

I am starting to come to the conclusion that all that is happening in politics is a show. You know, like when you sit down to watch wrestling?

You have the one side yelling and screaming at the other "Hey, I'm great, you are scum and I'm gonna beat you!" and the other side yelling back "Hey You are scum, I'm greater than you, and I'm gonna show you!"

For the first time in my life, I'm watching politics for it's entertainment value.

What's wrong with this picture?

And..isn't that scary to anyone but me?

So I did a search on YouTube and found this...hmmmm...guess I'm NOT the only one thinking like this!

Friday, May 1, 2020

Kicking up some dust...

Hello, World!

It's been a very interesting and educational quarantine time!

I have started playing the stock market. I started out just investing my tips from work. Then I started investing my profits from Avon. Then I started investing what I had left after paying my bills...then I started buying and selling...Suddenly, in less than 2 months, I had about $645 invested.

Now wait a minute...that don't sound right at all. I only make minimum wage, and since the pandemic started, I haven't sold much Avon or made any tips. So that was quite a bit to have in my account. Where did all that money come from?

The only thing I can figure is buying and selling. The Stock Market has no place to go but UP right now.

I kind've feel guilty. this "pandemic" caused economic hardship for a lot of people. But all it did to me was keep me from selling more Avon than I did. I didn't hurt at all. AND I actually gained from it by using it as an opportunity to play the stock market and make even more money. I took full advantage of my stimulus, too.

My 11-year-old niece Mylee washed my car to earn money to buy a starter kit for some chicks that are fixing to hatch. She has taken to raising chickens. She is selling her eggs for $2/dozen. I bought 2 dozen today to help her out, as well as paid her $20 for washing my car.

It's so nice that I can see out my windows again. LOL

And, I am so proud of her for exercising her "opportunist" gene. She gets that from me. LOL

My housemate, Gary, got his money. He bought me some M&M's.

I've already sold about $60 worth of Avon today! I am ready to get out and sell!

Ya'll have a blessed day!

Tuesday, April 21, 2020

Coronavirus Rant by Yours Truly

I might have to do more of these in the future. This was kind of fun, as well as helpful de-stressing therapy. LOL

Sunday, April 19, 2020

Not Desperate

I love it when old boyfriends decide to come around to see if it's safe to try to come back into my life to use me some more.

They tend to get mad when they find out I don't need them anymore. I've learned to take care of myself better than they ever could...and I don't need a relationship just because I don't have one.

Just got blocked. LOL

If I EVER have another relationship, it is going to be with someone who has become my best friend FIRST.

I'm too old for the traditional dating games.

I sleep hugging a pillow that is so comfortable -- and less dramatic when I push it away to get even more comfortable.

I've learned I don't HAVE to have sex. And, some man pawing me or undressing me with his eyes doesn't turn me on.

What DOES turn me on is knowing that someone thinks I'm worth the time of day to hang out with, is never too busy to talk to me when I need to, and doesn't try to impress me by being someone they aren't just because they want to get laid. I want to love someone for who they really are, not someone I hope they will be. And I want consistency.

And, honestly, I'm just plain not looking. I really don't want someone who is. If it happens, it happens. But, I don't want a situation in which not wanting a relationship with someone is going to ruin being friends with that person.

And if I can't have that, well, I'll just consistently stay where I am.


Saturday, April 18, 2020

Corona Bug Blues

Hello, World!

I am so looking forward to selling some Avon soon! It is just so much easier when you are face to face with your customers.

Plus, my hours are getting cut back at work. Not sure how much longer my job will hold out in this bad economy today.

I found out, yesterday, that some members of my family have contracted the virus. (Please keep praying for them! I hear it is working!)

I called my mom, who lives just a few minutes away from them. I asked her if she knew about it. She said, in a frustrated tone of voice, "No. I don't have Facebook. I depend on ya'll to tell me what is going on." LOL

My mom, to this day, STILL refuses to get on the internet.

I don't think I can live without it.

Monday, April 13, 2020

Rules for Safe Commerce online:

Never give any information to anyone you don't know.

Never do business with anyone you don't know that doesn't have an established reputation. (for example, Amazon is an established business on the internet. George's fruitcakes is not. Never heard of them. They don't have any affiliate marketing links anywhere. They don't have a security certificate anywhere...etc.)

Never click links to make payments through Email, unless you have a heads up from someone you KNOW and TRUST that it is coming. (I have received emails from someone saying they are paypal and I owe this amount of money for something, and it asks me to put my password in the link they provide -- so they could steal it and take my money from my REAL paypal account! Thank goodness I am not that stupid!)

Never pay for anything over the phone. Make them send you a bill. ALWAYS have a paper trail.

ALWAYS know who you are talking to. Name, company they work for, position they hold and contact information in case you have questions BEFORE anything else is discussed.

Never offer information for anyone to verify. Make them give YOU what they know for you to verify.

Never give any information to anyone that isn't explicitly asked for, and then make sure that you trust them first.

Don't be scared to do business online. Everything you do, even if you are not doing it on the internet, goes online at some point. That credit or debit card you used? The information about what you bought, where you bought it, and who you gave the money to can be found online. Every time you bank, your information is put into a computer and that information can be accessed.

It isn't a matter of not giving information online. It is a matter of WHO you give the information to. Just like anywhere else. How secure is their website? What steps are they taking to keep your information safe? ON AND OFFLINE!

Days of Quarantine

Hello, World!

How is everyone's quarantine going?

I know one thing, I am ready for NORMAL again. I want to go out and sell my Avon! And, I want time to pass by faster at work.

I mean, where is the challenge anymore? All I do is twiddle my thumbs at work. Everything that can be cleaned is cleaned. All we do is sit around waiting for customers to call...and on Graveyard that isn't happening much.

I sure hope things get back to normal soon.

I had a customer call me the other day after I delivered her order to her. She said, "Did you say Avon was going to start selling household cleaning supplies?"

I said, "Yes, Ma'am! We have de-greaser, all-purpose cleaner, dryer sheets and laundry detergent sheets. We will be getting more as we progress."

She went on to explain how she was unable to get simple things at the grocery store, due to everyone hoarding supplies. She asked me to order it for her.

"All of it?" I asked. "Are you sure you want to do that? It's going to be about a month before all this is available. We'll probably be back to normal by then..."

She assured me she didn't want to chance it. LOL

I'm selling stuff we haven't even got yet! LOL

I've started updating my personal web site lately with all I am doing online. Plus, I decided I needed a central place to put all my bookmarks, and since I've been wondering what I should do with my web site since I have all my blogs...I figure I could use it as a doorway to all my stuff.

You can visit my website by clicking HERE

NO, FACEBOOK is not a web site. FACEBOOK is a blog. Facebook is run by people who tell you what you are allowed to post and only show what they want you to see. Just clarifying that for those of you who wonder why I would need another web site. You see, at my website, no one can tell me what I am allowed to post. It is MINE to do with what I want to. And, everything I post gets seen by those who really are interested enough to visit.

So, ya'll come see me!

Hope you all had a great Easter!

I keep looking for my stimulus check to arrive any day now...

Have a blessed day!

Monday, April 6, 2020

Thinking outside the box...

Hello, World!

It's been a few days since I updated you here, so I figured I would. LOL

We have now been in "shelter in place" measures for a month. It has taken a toll on the business where I work, but I see small signs that people are getting bored. We actually are picking up a little bit on some nights. Other nights just drag by...

It's so slow, that we have had to keep our meats in the freezer to be pulled as needed, because even in the refrigerator, the meat does not last and starts to go bad. We don't prep anything except on an as-needed bases, and we stopped selling grits because not enough people order them and it takes too long to make them on an as-needed bases.

We even stopped making tea. But, I found a way around that. I am not going all night without a glass of tea. So rather than make the regular 5 gallons we usually make, I make one gallon and put it in the refrigerator. If it don't sell, I drink it. LOL

This whole situation has made me appreciate the small business owner who is struggling. If it weren't for the new bills that Congress is enacting to help them, I know I would not be working right now, and I really appreciate it.

I had been afraid of selling Avon, because I didn't know if I would get into trouble doing it. BUT, we had a meeting last night on Zoom (a video conference website) and my Upline Leader, Miss Dana, said that we, at Avon, are ESSENTIAL. We sell essential products, so we can continue to sell as needed.

She encouraged us to "think outside the box" during these trying times, and gave us a lot of great ideas on how to go about it. We each shared our own experiences and ideas, and things that work for us. And, I am now highly motivated again!

I will be doing a live video soon to show off my bucket sale items. I am looking forward to it! AND, I think some of these ideas will be things that I will continue to do once we get back to "normal". In the meantime, nothing is stopping me from making sales ONLINE, so ya'll make sure to visit my store!

Also, I've been updating "The Ponder News" a lot more. I've just about got all of my sources arranged in one place so I can work more efficiently to that end. Ya'll make sure to visit to see what those in "the know" are doing that effects YOU as a citizen of this great country! And, make sure to join the Facebook group to stay updated when new news items are posted!

Ya'll have a blessed day! (And, remember, in spite of all this, we all ARE still blessed!)

Tuesday, March 31, 2020

WHY Trump is and HAS BEEN doing the right thing in all this...

The first person in the US to be diagnosed with COVID-19 who had NOT travelled outside the United States was diagnosed on FEBRUARY 25, the DAY Mardi Gra took place.

Seriously? Ya'll want to blame Trump for letting you go to Mardi Gra? HOW IRRATIONAL!

How would it have sounded if he had got on live TV on FEB 24 and said, "There is a virus ravaging China right now. I closed the Borders to China in January because of it. There is a TRAVEL BAN in place. Therefore, it is not advisable for anyone to go to Mardi Gra!"

EVERYONE, including ME would have thought he'd lost his mind. I almost did when he finally DID.

Not any more.

So, to put this in perspective:

The FIRST person to contract the virus who was not travelling to or from the US was on February 25. The day Mardi Gra STARTED.

The first person to be diagnosed in NY was on March 2.

Let that sink in. There are over 175,000 in the US today, 3351 REPORTED in TX right now.

At the rate it is going, even with quarantine, there will be over 50 Million who have COVID 19 in 6 months. There were only 54 Million who had ALL the other flus combined during the last 6 months.

Trump is doing, and HAS BEEN doing the right thing....buying us time. Just think what the numbers would be WITHOUT the quarantine measures.

Sunday, March 29, 2020

Not IF, but WHEN

1:48 PM on March 29, 2020

Texas now has 2564 Cases of Covid-19

The measures put into place by counties across Texas have slowed the numbers significantly. Texas dropped to number 12 from number 11 in the number of cases each state has.

There have been 36 deaths so far.

Roughly 54 Million people got the Flu this flu season with roughly 62,000 deaths. That is 6 months worth of data.

COVID-19 is new. In the beginning of this month alone, there were less than 100 cases in Texas. Without social distancing measures, the number of cases would have been 10X larger than they are, or more. Times 10 for each month of a regular flu season. You are looking at it encompassing ALL of Texas and then some. NO ONE would have been untouched by the COVID-19 virus.

So yes, Trump made the right call, and so has our local governments who are enacting stay at home measures.

If you want to see how bad it could get, just look at New York, who already has over 60,000 cases and is begging for help. Their hospitals are so over-run that organizations are pitching in to help provide more space for the sick. Trump just sent a Naval Hospital via ship to help out.

Most who get the virus, as with any other flu, will recover. But, about half of them will need help. This isn't about the numbers of people who will get it, this is about not overwhelming our hospitals and health centers during the progression.

If our hospitals are over capacitated, they will be FORCED to decide who and who not to treat. MORE people will die. Including those who have not been touched by the virus. For instance, a young mother of two comes in. She WAS healthy, strong, had a great long life ahead of her, but got the virus. Now the hospital is overstaffed. There is a terminally ill patient in a room that could save this girl. The hospital would probably have to chose to save her and let the terminally ill person die before his or her time. And THAT would be just the beginning. Soon, it would be older people who got the virus versus younger people who have more life ahead of them.

As it stands, yes, abortions outnumber the deaths. But if this happens, DEATH will be chosen by those who are not dying. So, because we choose LIFE, social distancing and stay at home measures are a MUST.

BTW, until a vaccine is made, be prepared to catch the virus. It isn't a matter of IF, but when. When you do, don't you want the BEST care the medical community has to offer? Or, is it worth living knowing someone else may have had to die for you to do so?