I can wallow in my hurt, refuse to admit I had done wrong; grab hold of anything that defends my actions and keep trying to beat my head against a brick wall.
Or, I can focus on something else that is just as destructive to my state of being, try to do the same thing in a new setting and hope for different results. Go insane...
OR, I can give it to God. Turn back to where I know I should be and go from there. I can let HIM change the situation, remove me from the valley, become who I should be in spite of the pain -- until the pain is completely gone.
But, still, there are tears of regret and longing.
It is these times I find myself on my knees trying to make sense of it all; until I realize that I don't have to.
If God brought me to it, He will walk me through it. I realize, at this point, that the reason I am in the state of mind that I am in is because I should have not tried to take the lead. I should not have ventured off the path He set me on. I should not have tried to grab hold to what God had already put behind me.
Where ever He leads, I should follow. At least this way, I am safe from the potholes of life as He walks me around them.
I still need to heal from the consequences of my latest stupidity. But, I am allowing God to strengthen me for the journey ahead.
I am still alive. That is something. That means that God isn't through with me yet.
This song is totally me!