Bleak Horizon

Hello, World!

I just went and picked up my last paycheck at Denny's, came home and attempted to do some push ups and sit ups. Seem more out of breath today than usual...

I was going to go to Flower Acres to get some more produce...but I have decided to hold off. I have enough food for awhile -- and I may be moving soon. I don't know what is going to happen in the next month or so. So, I don't need to bring in anymore than I need to.

We recently changed owners at the apartments where I live. Now they want us to pay a "convenience fee" of $17 just to pay our rent online, and won't accept it otherwise. They also want us to pay our own electricity. All of my neighbors are moving away. I've counted 7 apartments emptied out just in the past few days. It's got me worried. PLUS, I am told that starting in June, I will have to pay 1/26th of the water bill. Not happy about that, either.

Yep, I can see that I probably won't be here very much longer, no matter what happens. But, first, I have to know what I have to work with.

I haven't heard anything yet about my job application. I won't know anything about it until Monday. May is secured, I think.

And, I've lost another 5 lbs.

Have a blessed day!

Plans and Hopes...

The restaurant where I work is going to be having a remodel holiday. This means that I work tonight, then I am off for 2 days, then I work for 3 days, then on Sunday I am going to go see my baby boy. I will not have to be back at work until Friday, if everything goes as planned.

My oldest son will be going with me. So, I will get to see both of my boys together for the first time in a while. Of course it will only be for a few hours, because I will be coming back home to get ready to go see an old friend of mine I haven't seen since my youngest son was a baby.

I had planned to go see another friend of mine that I haven't seen since I was in 3rd grade, unfortunately I don't think that's going to work out.

It will just have to wait until the next I have a few days to spare.

Sigh.

Today I got my W-2 for my current job. I just need my W2 for my previous job so I can do my taxes for the year. This year is going to be great, because I will have my student loan paid off, and we'll get the keep some of my refund. It will be the first time I get money back in over 10 years.

They say that as you get older, life gets easier. I'm not sure if it gets easier, or if I've just learned to live it better. I do know that I am happier and more content. I haven't stopped Dreaming or hoping (it would still be nice to win the lottery -- but then I can't win if I don't play, and I just can't seem to bring myself to spend the money on a ticket that has a one-in-a-billion chance of winning), I've just learned that the Lord blesses who He will bless when He thinks the time is right. In the meantime I've learned what it means to wait upon the Lord.

I can't wait to lay eyes on my baby boy again.