The Dark before the Light

Hello, World!

The last few days I've been struggling with my sleep hours. I'm so used to sleeping during the day, I guess, after working the graveyard shift for the last two years, that sleeping at night is a struggle.

Fred and I have been enjoying episodes of "Dexter". We are in the third season now.

I took Gary to the Bank yesterday so he could pay his rent. And, I paid my lot rent for the month with that money, as well as the house payment. He bought us all chicken to eat, and gave the dogs the wings (as is our tradition). I spoke to the trailer park owners about my unemployment, and they were really supportive. He used to work at the Prison, too, and said I should have no problem at my new place of employment that I am only waiting on the background check for now.

Last night I snacked on sausage and pancake "corn dogs". I dipped them in my pear preserve syrup and it was AWESOME. Fred enjoyed it, too.

I am still waiting on my last checks, so money is way tight, and I had to break down and use the credit card to buy groceries with yesterday. I also got the dogs some flea drops -- it's that time of year. They were thankful for it, I think.

Still struggling with depression, but I see the light at the end of the tunnel...I think.

It's just a flicker, but it's there. I'm looking hard.

Have a blessed day!

Plans and Hopes...

The restaurant where I work is going to be having a remodel holiday. This means that I work tonight, then I am off for 2 days, then I work for 3 days, then on Sunday I am going to go see my baby boy. I will not have to be back at work until Friday, if everything goes as planned.

My oldest son will be going with me. So, I will get to see both of my boys together for the first time in a while. Of course it will only be for a few hours, because I will be coming back home to get ready to go see an old friend of mine I haven't seen since my youngest son was a baby.

I had planned to go see another friend of mine that I haven't seen since I was in 3rd grade, unfortunately I don't think that's going to work out.

It will just have to wait until the next I have a few days to spare.

Sigh.

Today I got my W-2 for my current job. I just need my W2 for my previous job so I can do my taxes for the year. This year is going to be great, because I will have my student loan paid off, and we'll get the keep some of my refund. It will be the first time I get money back in over 10 years.

They say that as you get older, life gets easier. I'm not sure if it gets easier, or if I've just learned to live it better. I do know that I am happier and more content. I haven't stopped Dreaming or hoping (it would still be nice to win the lottery -- but then I can't win if I don't play, and I just can't seem to bring myself to spend the money on a ticket that has a one-in-a-billion chance of winning), I've just learned that the Lord blesses who He will bless when He thinks the time is right. In the meantime I've learned what it means to wait upon the Lord.

I can't wait to lay eyes on my baby boy again.