Letting God Lead Me

When I first started working for the apps as a self-employed Courier and taxi driver, I was desperate to make money to pay my bills. However, I recognized that no matter what I did, my success or failure will depend on the will of the Lord.

I got on my knees and I asked him for guidance. I promised him that if he brought me out of the current situation that I was in financially, I would do whatever I could to make sure that he got the glory for all of it.

God did not fail me. I am content to let him lead. I'm not asking for a whole lot just enough to keep me from worrying about the future.

One of the things I have learned is that the more money I make, the more it needs to be managed. And, the more effort I make to manage it costs me more. For example, I had to invest in QuickBooks on a monthly basis. I have to make sure that my car is well maintained on a monthly basis. I had to invest in a better working phone than the one I had. I had to buy a new computer. And overtime there were other smaller expenses that accumulated.

It's nice to be able to make more money than I have ever made before, I just wish that I could get to keep all of the money that I make.

A lot of people will tell me that I should go and find a better job or another job that doesn't cost so much, but the truth is no matter what job I get the more money I have the more money I'm going to have to spend. That's life. And the only reason you make money is so you can spend it.

God let me enjoy life at a whole new level though. I was eating in places I've never eaten before, traveling to places I've never been, meeting people I've never met, and giving people advice on a regular basis from what I've learned. I found that I enjoyed this new life that I started Living.

So if I have to weigh it between the security of having a 40 hour a week work week working for someone else and doing what I love to do on a daily basis that I'm doing right now, I choose the way things are right now. At least I enjoy my life. I couldn't do that if I were committed to someone else and making them money trying to survive myself.

Caring about how others feel about me...

In my experience, I have learned not to care if others care as much as I do. It really doesn't matter to me how they feel. Love isn't supposed to be two sided. God didn't say "only care about others who care about you as much". So, whether others care or not doesn't matter. Sure, it can hurt if you really value the fact that they should care. But when you stop basing your relationships on how the other person feels, you are much happier. As far as I am concerned, God loved me enough to die for me. That's all I need to be happy.

Small Gifts

Yesterday, I went to Flower Acres to get produce. I was near the end of the line, so a lot of the stuff had been given away by the time I got there. But, I got a watermelon, a big bag of white potatoes and a bag of sweet potatoes.

Guess what I did for supper tonight? Yep. Meat and tators. LOL

Tuesday night at work, a truck driver came in with a box. There were two trays of dippable veggie trays in it, with ranch dressing in the middle. He said his truck had been loaded with too much and he was trying to get rid of the excess. I grabbed both of them and he was happy to be rid of them.

I gave one to a co-worker, and put the other in the fridge to take home with me. Then, I forgot it. I messaged my manager later and told her she could have it, as I wouldn't be returning to work until Friday night and I didn't want them to go to waste. She gladly accepted them.

God is always giving me small gifts. Then, He gives me opportunities to give small gifts to others. My cup runneth over.

Give it all to Jesus!