They judge you because you don't have what they have, even though they have watched you for ten years go from being abused, battered, nearly homeless with nothing but a work uniform to wear, no car, no phone, no computer, working part time for min wage, to living in a nice apartment with a pool downstairs, phone, 3 computers, cars, and working overtime for twice what min wage is, and helping others when they can. They have seen that you can barely move around, yet you continue to work.
They have watched you drop old habits and form new ones that were healthier.
And, they still want to verbally assault you and refuse to help you when things start going bad, kicking you while you are down.
Yet, when I call them on it, suddenly I am the bad person. I am the one who is being mean?
I promise you, when I am up again, I will remember who my true friends and family are. I hope you don't have too much pride to ask for help when you need it, and when I have it. I will be there for those who helped me. And, for those who did not and prayed for me. And for those who kept their mouths shut, because they were too prideful and afraid of being judged for helping me.
But, those who kick me while I am down will get to squirm first. I will determine whether or not they deserve to be helped at that point by what they have learned from it. I will forgive them, but I will never forget. I will be merciful, but I will not throw my pearls before the swine to be trampled upon again.
For those of you who say that is not Christian, I beg of you to read the story of Joseph and his brothers. Joseph made them squirm to determine if they've learned anything before revealing who he was.
Some people never learn. They will not help you when you are in quicksand, and as you sink lower, they blame you and fault you and throw it in your face that you are not standing on firm ground, yet they offer no help for you to do so. And, their excuse is that they found their own way out at one time or another, even though the way they got out is not available to the one who is sinking.
Yes, I will remember them. I will forgive them. I may even give them the opportunity to make it right by being there for me again in the future, in case they change their ways. But I will never forget.
I have no problem cutting people out of my life who spit in my face and kick me while I am down. As I have proven in the last few days, when one is shut out, the door is open for two more to take their place. Hopefully, the two more gained are much better people.
If you are one of those people who kick me while I am down, and are given the opportunity to be there for me again in the future, I hope you think about how unworthy you are of my help when you need it before you make a decision to kick me again.
46 While he yet talked to the people, behold, his mother and his brethren stood without, desiring to speak with him.
47 Then one said unto him, Behold, thy mother and thy brethren stand without, desiring to speak with thee.
48 But he answered and said unto him that told him, Who is my mother? and who are my brethren?
49 And he stretched forth his hand toward his disciples, and said, Behold my mother and my brethren!
50 For whosoever shall do the will of my Father which is in heaven, the same is my brother, and sister, and mother.
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