Sunday, April 21, 2019

The Rachel Scott Story: I am not Ashamed

If you have never seen it, I would advise you to watch "I am not ashamed: The Rachel Scott story".

This is about the first person who was killed at Colombine High School in 1999. It is truly inspirational. A MUST SEE.

Very Inspirational. I give it a 10!


Happy Easter!

Happy Easter, World!

or rather,

Happy Resurrection Day!

Today, approximately 2000 years ago, Jesus the Christ rose from the dead, sat up, neatly folded the napkin that was over his face and laid it on the table beside his funeral bed and walked out of the tomb.

He was on a mission of comfort and healing, as He had been during the 33 years before that day. He had one final mission: to make sure that his disciples understood what was asked of them. Only by showing them that He had conquered death could that happen.

Over 500 eye-witnesses saw Him walking the streets in the days after His death. That's a lot of eye-witnesses.

He showed Peter the power of forgiveness, and tasked him with "feeding His sheep" and "watching over His flock". Then, He went to the mountain and He told those that followed Him, “Therefore go and make disciples of all nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit, and teaching them to obey everything I have commanded you." He said He would stay with us until the end of the age.

And, He said on numerous occasions, "I'll be back."

Today, we don't just celebrate the resurrection. We also celebrate the new life, the second chance, the hopeful future that Jesus promised.

Happy Resurrection Day!






Saturday, April 20, 2019

Forgiveness

I sat here today watching "After Colombine" on Pureflix.

As I listened to the second episode, I heard the former students who were there that day talk about forgiveness. It got me thinking.

These were kids (now adults, 20 years later) who still live with the trauma of what happened in their lives. They talk about what they have had to do in order to move on with their lives and not be "stuck" in the dark place that tragedy took them. They explained the process they went through in order to forgive and move on.

Many people suffer from PTSD from bad events that happened in their past. Soldiers who come home from wars, women who were raped, children who were abused. The PTSD, I have learned, is at its worse when the victim doesn't know how to forgive.

How many of us today are still holding on to anger over something someone did to us years ago. When we see them we become angry all over again, and it eats at us -- from the inside out. That is a form of PTSD.

Trauma can be defined as something that happens to you that your mind just can't seem to let go of. What may be something someone else seems to brush off and move on as if nothing happened, may be something you personally can't. That is a form of PTSD.

I look at the Colombine "Kids", and hear their story and then I look to myself at the things in my life that I have found hard to "let go". If they can do it, there is no reason I shouldn't be able to.


Getting By

Hello, World!

I had to go to the store last night because the dogs were out of food. As for me and the guys, we've been getting by.

The other night, I fixed chicken and dumplings for the first time in a while. The guys really enjoyed that. They said so.

Last night, I fixed homemade beanie weenies. Gary said it was really good, and reminded him of when he was a kid.

I was looking for something cheap and good.

I made a chicken and rice casserole the other night. Only one thing wrong with that: There wasn't more.

Tonight it's hamburger helper. Might cook up some of my cabbage to go with it. Or, sweet potatoes.

Doing all I can not to have to spend money.

Happy Easter weekend, and have a blessed day!

Thursday, April 18, 2019

Storm

Hello, World.

I am starting to feel a little better.

It stormed here at the homestead last night. The dogs were frightened. Milo was in fight or flight mode all night.

I remember the first time he heard thunder, just a few days after I first got him. Poor baby used the bathroom all over himself, yelping and crouching in the middle of the kitchen floor.

He's grown a lot since then. Now he jumps in our laps, or tries to find the strongest person around to snuggle with. Or, hides in a corner somewhere.

Last night, I got the feeling he was trying to protect ME. LOL

Otis barked at the thunder.

Needless to say, last night wasn't a very restful one. I had to soothe my babies.

Well, time to get to work on the websites, and then fill out an app or two. Have a blessed day!


Tuesday, April 16, 2019

Applications, Dogs and Left-Overs

Hello, World!

I spent all day updating my sites and filling out applications and completing assessment exams. Wow, I didn't know you had to be educated in calculus to work at a pizza joint! LOL

Anywho...

I'm still not feeling well. Awful. Just Awful. I just have to endure...(which, I'm so good at doing now).

The dogs have spent most of the day outside. I gave them chew sticks once when they came in. Otis ran with his. Milo dropped his and walked off like I hurt his feelings or something, so I had to take his back and give him a bacon treat, instead.

Later, Otis had his stick over halfway chewed up, and when I sat down, he dropped his stick long enough to come love on me for a minute. Milo grabbed his stick when he wasn't looking and ate the rest of it. Mean dog. LOL

Fred is making friends with some stray cats we have hanging around. After months of feeding them, two of them are finally letting him pet them. Oh boy. A cat. Sigh...

The baby dogs will love that. LOL

It's left-over beans and cornbread today. I don't feel like cooking, and the guys aren't complaining.

Have a blessed day!

Monday, April 15, 2019

Vital Marketing and Me

Good morning, World!

Was looking at my earnings from my website and by the 11th of this month I surpassed my earnings from last month. Today I have doubled it. My sites are finally taking off after 10 years of playing with it. I think I hit the go button somewhere. LOL

Makes me want to keep working at it. Anyway...

I woke up late this morning. I have to go to the store, then I have to work on my living room some today. I'll be spending the rest of the day working on marketing again. Something is better than nothing, and I am not spending gas money.

I had a hundred shares of Vital Therapies, INC. I was doing good. The whole thing was $2 when I bought it. I was going to make $60 if I sold it all...then the company merge with another company and I was compensated only 2 shares of the new company. THAT SUCKS! Welcome to the stock market. Sigh...should have sold it. But, I wasn't allowed to sell until I held it for more than 30 days, and my thirty days wasn't up.

We're having beans and rice with sausage in the crockpot today. I don't feel like cooking. LOL

I was reminded last night that I am still a woman by God. Today, for the first time in months, it seems, I woke up feeling like I had a hangover from you know where. Not a good day, but doing the best I can with what I have with what God gives me to do it with.

Sigh...

Have a blessed day. (I know mine is, no matter how I feel).


Wednesday, March 27, 2019

Who am I?


Hello, World!

I have learned the hardest part about life is becoming who you want to be, and then experiencing things that can change you.

It is a challenge to keep being the person you are in spite of the circumstances and the people around you at any given time.

Shakespeare once said, "To thine own self be true." I find this so true. If you know who you are, and what you stand for, and what values you hold dear and WHY, then nothing anyone says about you or to you should ever change who you are, or how you react to "life".

Working in a prison, I have come to reflect on who I am on a daily basis. It is not just the prisoners I have to worry about who use their judgments to attempt to attack, censor or disrespect who I am. I have learned to begin each action, reaction or response with "Who am I?" and "Who does God say that I am?"

I am a princess. This is not my home. It is not my desire to be someone I am not. I do not wish to change my home address. I do not wish to believe in the worth that other people put on me. I know my worth, and no matter where I am or who I am with at any given moment, I will ALWAYS be me.

Have a blessed day!



The Spirit of Fear


I have come to the conclusion that what is mostly wrong with the world today is that there is so much fear. People, in general, are afraid of everything. No one wants to offend anyone, and they feel a deep sense of dread and danger when it comes time to stand up and do the job they have been called to do.

God has told us not to fear 365 times in the Bible. You would think that if you heard God say do not fear every day of the year, people would actually listen and obey.

Now, I have not found anyone who is fearless to do what is right and good. And, part of the problem there is that "right" and "good" are too open to interpretation.

I see it all around me. At church, when it concerns the government, when it concerns parenting, when it concerns our jobs, and it has paralyzed us as a people.

Satan is effectively taking over this world. All the evidence you need is the prevalence of fear surrounding us and flowing through us on a daily basis.

2 Timothy 1:7
“For God hath not given us the spirit of fear; but of power, and of love, and of a sound mind.”

It has become so bad that those who tend to take chances, gamble on outcomes, and face challenges everyday are being cast by their peers as being stupid, idiotic, selfish and crazy.

And, yet, it is the fearless that change the world

Today, the World is due for a big change. It is going to take the fearless to do it and make it happen. If you have any doubt whether or not God has called you to be that people, read your Bible. He says it 365 times.

If you call yourself a child of the Most High God, then it is time you prove it by putting on some courage and growing some spine!

But, when you do, remember, it is the fearless that most people are afraid of!



Tuesday, March 19, 2019

Butch: My Hero


I was about two-years-old when my dad brought home a tiny puppy, not more than five weeks old. He was black, with brown markings on his nose and around his feet. He wasn’t a pedigree, or specially bred dog. He was just a mutt. My dad told me his name was Butch. After that, Butch became my hero.

My mother didn’t like animals in the house, so we made him a bed of old shirts and rags and placed him in the garage. Every day I would play with Butch, pulling him by the ears, or picking him up by the legs. I was just a baby, myself, so Butch didn’t really mind.

As he grew, he would follow me around the yard. When I would slide down the slide, Butch wanted to slide, too. It wasn’t long before he learned to climb the ladder behind me, and slide down near my back.

When my mom re-married, we moved to the country. There were woods all around us, with a beautiful pond, and a large garden during the summer -- with all kinds of vegetables growing in it. Butch would follow us down the trail to the garden, and bark at all the bugs and grasshoppers that he would stir up, on the way.

During the spring, we would go camping at the lake, and Butch would welcome the invitation my step-dad would give him to jump in the back of the pick-up and go with us. He liked to follow us into the water, and splash the water on us, when he would shake his black fur at the shoreline. At home, he could be found on the porch most of the time, basking in the warm heat, as his tongue hung out of his mouth.

On fall mornings, he would bark to warn me that the school bus was on the way. Later in the afternoon, he would be there to greet me when I got off of the same bus. He would walk in front of me, to warn me of holes in the road, or snakes I might not see.

During the winter, it would sleet and snow. We would go outside and skate on the ice, in our front yard. One year, Butch re-discovered the slide. My neighbors and I would laugh at him, when he would climb the ladder and slide halfway across the yard, then turn around and do it again.He thought it was fun.

One spring, when my baby sister was only three, I was left to care for her while my mother went to work. I sent my sister outside to play while I fixed lunch. I knew Butch would take care of her.

It wasn’t long after she went outside, that I heard her scream, and Butch was barking madly. I opened the door to see what the problem was and heard her scream, “SNAKE!” She was doing as she had been taught to do when she saw a snake, she was standing still and screaming for help.

I ran out there to see the snake better; then I knew I had to get her out of striking distance of the snake. I didn’t have any idea how I was going to do that. Finally, I said, “Butch, I need you to get his attention so I can kill him.” I didn’t expect Butch to respond, but he did.

Miraculously, Butch picked up a stick in his mouth; then ran to the other side of the snake, away from my sister. He tossed the stick in the air and barked. The snake turned around and struck toward him, missing him, and giving my sister time to run away. I went into the shed and brought back a hoe, and with Butch’s help, I killed the snake.

A few years later, I spent the summer with my real dad. When I came back home, Butch could hardly walk. I was informed that he had heart worms, and that the doctor said there was nothing he could do for him. I spent the next few weeks feeding him and petting him. Finally, one day, I cried as I told him I loved him.

“You’re the best dog anybody could have ever had,” I told him, “And, I’m gonna miss you something awful. But, I don’t know what to do to make you better.”

The next day, he was gone. I guess he knew that I was saying goodbye. A few months later, we found him in an old bathtub full of water at the edge of the woods. It was his way of sparing me anymore pain.

In this life, you are likely to cross paths with many heroes. If a hero’s qualifications aren’t limited to human beings, then I would have to say that my dog, Butch, was definitely one of mine.